thought of the day (rather serious, this one)

“I don’t like feeling that I am replaceable.”

it seems I am also no stranger to ENTITLEMENT after all, feeling as I do, that once I have become part of something, or obtained something, that I should thereafter ALWAYS have/be part of it.

😉 GOD FORBID I’m ever dating a woman they leave me! hahahahah. not really a joke, though.

very challenging, to accept such things. I HATE being excluded from that which I want to belong to, that which I DO, or DID, belong to… why do I feel this… is it normal? I should think that my apparently extreme sensitivity to it indicates that I do not love myself enough, and that I give over the care of “little michael” (the proverbial inner-child) to inappropriate persons,

and yet… I cannot control what such persons will do… and it is true that they do NOT have my or my interests in mind AT ALL, and that this is life, and that…. curses… I’ll have to find some way to live with it… or I’ll be miserable and dependent always on the love and care of others instead of me….

ok, then…
ok.
this must be accepted, then. it hurts. it will hurt.
I suppose it shall also empower.

ouch.

ok, then…
ok.