politics
Not everything is supposed to be run like a business.
frankly, I think that applies to most businesses as well.
really,
Care about more than just making money. please.
and by god, don’t define yourself in terms of how much money you make, your relationship to others, within a business, elsewhere, or to a business.
you are an individual. be a good one. have a heart. 
Thought of the Day
Appearances aren’t important, nor are what others “might” or might not think.
Truth is.
it’s interesting, being an individual who
1. didn’t really understand a lot of normalcy as a child.
2. still doesn’t.
3. wouldn’t and doesn’t choose said normalcy when given the choice.
4. didn’t and doesn’t feel the system was designed with him in mind.
5. doesn’t feel obligated in any way to present, TO ANYONE, ANY kind of AIR or APPEARANCE OF NORMALCY.
is it me, or are a great many
business people and such
VERY UNCREATIVE?
that’s not really a question at all.
it’s my opinion.
it seems to me that very often, all such people care about is “mindlessly, UNCREATIVELY and UNCRITICALLY
COPYING what has come before, which in it’s original form was probably
invented by
1. a creative
2. risk-taking person.
Attachment leads to Jealousy.
The Shadow of Greed, That is…”
-Master Yoda.
attachment to perfection, to what has come before.
do not be that way.
ever.
take fucking risks.
fail fucking miserably.
only them might you fucking fly.
(I didn’t mean to give offense in this post, I simply was a bit resentful when I wrote it. I simply wish businesspersons were in general more creative, and no, it wouldn’t be too bad if creative persons (like me) were more business saavy, somehow (sp.)
Oh, and they shouldn’t be so unimaginative and conformist and fearful and mundane. they should take far more chances and such. Basically, what I already said:)
you don’t need to be loved by others,
nor by god.
but by YOURSELF.
“Goodness and Truth lie only in the Depths.”
-Wagner (the Rhinemaidens, actually.)
and yes, them other two things CAN HURT if you substitute em TOO much for that third (which is really the FIRST) thing.
people keep saying that people today are really selfish.
they are misusing the word selfish, grossly.
people today are focused on the approval of and attention from OTHERS.
that’s not selfish.
I mean, depending if you subscribe to “this” or “that” definition of the word, ok.
people should seek love and approval from THEMSELVES.
no amount of it from everyone else, the public, or god, yes,
will ever hold a candle to oneself.
you may think otherwise. go ahead.
I suppose an imaginary god is ok.
I suppose people are ok, but I tell you once again
“Goodness and Truth lie only in the Depths.”
-Wagner (the Rhinemaidens, actually.)
I’d not have written my jazz band arrangement, nor my marching arrangements, nor my percussion pieces in the way that I have, if I cared. how can I afford to care?
I care what I want, what I want to learn, and what happens when I do things a certain way, I don’t care for being liked to the extent that I purposefully learn what others have done that have worked.
why should I? such a thought hides “strong” anger within me, strong anger and resentment.
I like to do things MY way.
I don’t need your approval, your love. I have my own.
If I’m not to your taste, well then that is fine, I’m to someones taste, and to mine.
I love myself, and some others do and will love me too, and that’s enough.
when caring about being understood, indeed, when being understood, is less important than learning your craft.
I mean, think of a baby, or a child, or a creative adult or something.
a child isn’t concerned with whether anyone will care what it’s doing when it drops, say, a spoon. it’s interested in GRAVITY and HOW IT WORKS, and the results of it’s actions, not others.
-about music, and compromising and doing things in good enough ways, rather than the HONEST kind, where “I” am EXPERIMENTING, and LEARNING what doesn’t work and WHY….
why would I care to make things allegedly easy for typical people to understand?
why not indulge my curiosity and fancy?
if I cared about that, I’d just write boring block chords instead of TRYING things, to SEE what HAPPENS.
most uncreative, simply obedient.
why be that way?
I shall not, and am not.
(this was specifically about composing, music at that, and that there have been times when I have written chords “my” way, not the conventional way, or have orchestrated things in a way that seems interesting TO ME< NOW, and not in some “accepted” way.
I mean, really, why should I care if others “approve” of what I’m doing?
I’M BUSY “LEARNING” HERE!!!
no matter what happens to you, no matter what you do, no matter who does or doesn’t love you-
YOU’RE STILL YOU.
make
YOURSELF happy and loved, BY YOURSELF.
nothing else will do it “instead.”
Gender Roles?
…
I’m against Any system that discourages men from being honest with their feelings, and encourages women to feel guilty about being sexual, or alive, even.
I just overheard some teenage girls telling another “not to respond at all” to a guy she liked, cause it would make her seem like she was too into it.
I don’t approve of this.
say what you will about it.
and go fuck yourself if you defend it.
Fuck Gender Roles.
#fuckgenderroles
holding teachers accountable for their students’ test scores makes as much sense as holding me a music teacher accountable for
1. if any of my students have a not-very-good sense of time (teaching that is sometimes impossible, depending.)
2. if they decided not to practice what I tell them to each and every single lesson for years on end.
3. similar to 1, but their talent as well.
you can’t come to me, or to any teacher, and expect them to work magic.
you have to do the work and do a great deal of it for a long time.
aren’t going to?
it’s YOUR FAULT.