if you think you don’t have power, guess what:
you don’t.
Category Archives: CalArts (California Institute of the Arts)
I really need some kinda manager or
I really need some kinda manager or agent or life coach or somethin…
just the RIGHT KIND, not someone whom I feel judged by, not someone who is communicating in a way that I don’t understand, that overwhelms me, that triggers me, someone who is encouraging in a way that just WORKS with me.
“Nothing anyone does or says can hurt me”
Thought of the Day, 7 23 2015
Nothing anyone does or says can hurt me, even if they are people who are/were really close to me who’s approval and love I really needed or wanted.
trying to tell ourselves this, yes.
after all…
I’m Me, not them, and in the end, what they do or say has nothing do with my rights to happiness and such, my worth.
Harmony, Wagner, and African Drumming, of course
… I think it’s pretty cool that I teach things as disparate as
Music theory, about Harmony, and Wagner, and
African Music and some Dance
do something yourself
yeah…. ‘steada depending on others to provide YOUR opportunities for stimulation (and money,) not to mention livelihood, that is, adhd-high-stimulation,
do it your fuckin self.
why have I so often just opted to find something that’s awesome enough, and just BE part of it, rather than MAKING one myself….
given, I haven’t done this when there IS no “thing” in a given area, I HAVE gone and made my own in said cases.
perhaps I should ALWAYS do this.
self-helping inDEed
drumset…
I’m increasingly interested in playing drumset (in my way) on cool music only,
that is,
things Brazilian, African, and a little Jazzy too.
Music and In the Moment
I almost feel sorry for people who can’t be in the moment enough to totally love playing and listening to wonderful (Brazilian in this case) music so much that it is life, pure joy, right now, never before, never after, always now.
ain’t necessarily an endorphins thing, though they seem to do this sometimes also.
just an in the moment thing.
and a love harmony and rhythm (or melody) thing.
Guess I’m just lucky, and man life would suck if this wasn’t enough.
me blessed.
yay music.
don’t be opportunist, STAND for things
politicians (and everyone) shouldn’t be OPPORTUNIST. they should STAND for things and do them.
either things THEY THEMSELVES care about, and/or things that OTHERS do.
not just whatever’s popular, whatever’s gonna work.
I’m NOT sorry, but doing whatever WORKS isn’t ok. it puts you at the mercy of meaningless bullshit, and that is UNfuckinacceptable.
and by the WAY; I mean this ARTISTICALLY, and in ALL MANNER OF WAYS, not just politics, not even specifically politics.
WHAT others appreciate about you
trying to control WHAT others appreciate about you is one thing.
but believing that you don’t deserve appreciation simply for normal human qualities is QUITE another, particularly if it causes to try to control what others appreciate about you.
it might even lead you to not present yourself for a great many experiences, because you think that all you have to offer is being abnormal, extreme, crazy, weird, special, different. (it’s not like people didn’t make me feel guilty for being normal as a child, nor appreciate me only when I was special and different (they did, and they did, nor is it like many of my interests genuinely were and ARE in things that are less common and normal than some.)
…
starting things isn’t all that easy.
starting things isn’t all that easy.
finishing them doesn’t seem to take commitment, what it takes is giving enough of a fuck about them instead of ten or a million other “equally as interesting if not more so” things that you also could start.
for after all…
I want what you want…
…
I want
Everything.