there was never gonna be anything without self-love.
no one else could give it to me.
I would never have accepted other people’s compliments, much less their love, without SELF-love.
Category Archives: I’m a Crazy Artist
hmmm…
best version of you
sudden inspiration:
your actions should conform to whatever the best version of is, or would have been or could be if you WERE in fact the best version of you.
crazy thought, I know
Bb D E A
at a coffee house
asked what the song playing is
they don’t know
no smart phone.
the song now is in g dorian…
and has a fender rhodes every two bars playing
Bb D E A G….
BbM #11…
love
Be the Best You, Today
It Is Never about popularity.
It Is Always about being the best You, Today.
-me.
(this while potentially about anything, was about Music, not winning a grammy, and playing music not for profit, nor the approval of the mob, but to just be awesome, yourself.
IliketoworkinDARKLOUDCOFFEEHOUSE
why do I prefer to write music in a DARK, LOUD coffeehouse (with MY OWN music in my headphones, OVER the already loud music at the coffeehouse,
miles from home, until sometimes TWO IN THE MORNING…
as opposed to in some other way?
my father was a copy-editor, he too worked until 2am.
my friend says that the best creative ideas always happen between midnight and 6 am.
when I arrange music for marching band (very fun in fact)
I always end up doing it from like at night till dawn.
so, like,
what the fuck, why???
it seems/have positive beliefs no matter what
so it seems, the fact that there are some things that almost everyone but me does
does not in fact mean all that much, when it comes to my chances of some day doing them too.
I always believed it did,
but that’s what happens when you have ANY beliefs about yourself, negative or positive;
you see evidence of them everywhere you look, i.e, they sorta come true in a loose sense.
Serving others instead of yourself is easier if
THOUGHT of the day (like this one, I do.)
Serving others instead of yourself, and allowing others to serve you too
is easier if your tastes are conventional, average.
PARTY!!!!! #JamesBrownisGOD
JAM
having any positive attributes
having any positive attributes (being talented, smart, or well endowed)
and yet not pursuing things
are not all that related at all, remember this.
don’t say “being (some positive attribute) doesn’t do me any good” (I’ve said it millions of times, before, not now)
that’s not true.
such positive things are kinda super great. don’t confuse having them with not pursuing your dreams, NOR WITH other people not being as cool, nor them just not liking you.
who needs em.
the right monkeys exist.
find yours.
start by BEING one.
and if you seem to find none, look elsewhere. a lotta people suck and are just no fun, especially if you’re like me:)
-how others treat you is never-
-how others treat you is never a reflection of anything but THEM.
this includes mommy and daddy when you were too young to understand that they are in fact human, imperfect, not god, and in all probability HIGHLY flawed.
be courageous when you can, and ask yourself, if your behaviors today are based on a childhood “misunderstanding” of the “chaos” that surrounded little you.
tell yourself that you deserve love, or whatever you “didn’t get”, regardless of what you DID get.
over and over.
for a very long time.
years.
the best time to plant a tree was when you were little.
the second best time is now.
a child would keep going until a very long time had passed.
adults you must do this too.
and you can.