see? self-mockery, it’s the way of kings.
Category Archives: Music
Music Thoughts
not getting around to things you really want…
if there are
1. some things I do that basically OTHER PEOPLE arrange, and I merely have to GO to…
2. and other things which would happen if “I” succeeded in arranging and organizing them…
then why is it that so often, the latter are things I never GET to until um, years later than I need to…
if you think you don’t have power
if you think you don’t have power, guess what:
you don’t.
Eb Gb Bb C Bb Gb repeating over-
Eb Gb Bb C Bb Gb repeating over
D Bb Gb D Gb Bb
a minor chord with the dorian inflection of a major six, at the same time as an augmented chord on the major 7th…
20 points if you get it:
#perfectpitchisawesome
I really need some kinda manager or
I really need some kinda manager or agent or life coach or somethin…
just the RIGHT KIND, not someone whom I feel judged by, not someone who is communicating in a way that I don’t understand, that overwhelms me, that triggers me, someone who is encouraging in a way that just WORKS with me.
“Nothing anyone does or says can hurt me”
Thought of the Day, 7 23 2015
Nothing anyone does or says can hurt me, even if they are people who are/were really close to me who’s approval and love I really needed or wanted.
trying to tell ourselves this, yes.
after all…
I’m Me, not them, and in the end, what they do or say has nothing do with my rights to happiness and such, my worth.
happy yourself, not because of others
people are not there for you to use to make yourself feel better, though they can indeed sometimes do that.
at a certain point, you must face yourself, and realize (or learn) that you are a good person who deserves happiness JUST BECAUSE, regardless of how others treat you, of whether they “see” your goodness, your humanity.
that could be pretty hard for a frightened young child, ill-equiped to understand existence, to understand.
Harmony, Wagner, and African Drumming, of course
… I think it’s pretty cool that I teach things as disparate as
Music theory, about Harmony, and Wagner, and
African Music and some Dance
do something yourself
yeah…. ‘steada depending on others to provide YOUR opportunities for stimulation (and money,) not to mention livelihood, that is, adhd-high-stimulation,
do it your fuckin self.
why have I so often just opted to find something that’s awesome enough, and just BE part of it, rather than MAKING one myself….
given, I haven’t done this when there IS no “thing” in a given area, I HAVE gone and made my own in said cases.
perhaps I should ALWAYS do this.
self-helping inDEed
“I don’t like feeling that I am replaceable.”
thought of the day (rather serious, this one)
“I don’t like feeling that I am replaceable.”
it seems I am also no stranger to ENTITLEMENT after all, feeling as I do, that once I have become part of something, or obtained something, that I should thereafter ALWAYS have/be part of it.
😉 GOD FORBID I’m ever dating a woman they leave me! hahahahah. not really a joke, though.
very challenging, to accept such things. I HATE being excluded from that which I want to belong to, that which I DO, or DID, belong to… why do I feel this… is it normal? I should think that my apparently extreme sensitivity to it indicates that I do not love myself enough, and that I give over the care of “little michael” (the proverbial inner-child) to inappropriate persons,
and yet… I cannot control what such persons will do… and it is true that they do NOT have my or my interests in mind AT ALL, and that this is life, and that…. curses… I’ll have to find some way to live with it… or I’ll be miserable and dependent always on the love and care of others instead of me….
ok, then…
ok.
this must be accepted, then. it hurts. it will hurt.
I suppose it shall also empower.
ouch.
ok, then…
ok.