welcome to PROGRESSIVE CLEANING, or EXPONENTIAL cleaning…
or maybe just ADDITIVE cleaning…
where, every time I walk from the bed area across the room towards the bathroom or fridge (no kitchen, but got a fridge)
I throw out ONE piece of clutter on the way.
next time I go over (which is often 30 or less seconds later…)
two>
then three.
up to 7 today. that is 7+6+5+4+3+2+1
and yes, my place is a mess, but at this rate it won’t be some time soon.
party at Casa de Robbins when that happens.
(no.)
Category Archives: ADHD Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder
ADHD is awesome, mostly.
Topic Begin: PRESENTATION AND IMAGE
there are several reasons but ONE of them is
when people TALK and ACT like professionals, and yet, in truth, they turn out to be full of shit, and a shit-ton less competent than me, who despises talking and acting professional.
I was deeply offput, (sp!) more than once, when I saw some percussionist long ago, many many years, who presented themselves like that, and as principle percussion of so and so symphony (a tiny tiny one in a tiny tiny town, it turns out.)
I was frankly “offended” by them, and the musical director, when they allowed this person to play the same pieces I had played, and they played them way less well than I did.
I was more offended that they presented themselves in this way when they were not deserving of it.
a clear elevation of presentation and image over substance.
I say again
a clear elevation of presentation and image over substance.
UN-ACCEPTABLE!!!!!!!!!
I wonder how much of “the root” of my revulsion against normalcy, presentation, image, and professionalism, this particular incident played.
(it can’t have been all that much, the roots of those things in me go back to the 70s.)
Good Soldier Schweik Fast Horn Parts
hey, french horn or brass players-
I’d; imagine that playing Rapid Double-tounged 16th notes, on a single pitch, on brass instruments, such as “and a 2 e and 3 e and a 4” repeating at QUARTER NOTE = between 164 and 184, is kinda hard, right?
that’s what they do in the end of the first act of the Robert Kurka Opera THE GOOD SOLDIER SCHWEIK. very very very very fun! and in between, the timpani play “sol do”! haha! yet, in this instance, super cool.
sadly, the version which is this fast ain’t on line. (chicago opera theatre.) buy it.
self-helping 2, 12 20 2014
computers are TOO COMPLICATED. for my adhd brain. I need ONE TASK, and ONE TASK ONLY… to get anything done….
I need NO OTHERS AVAILABLE AT ALL.
(that’s not all I need, but one thing at a time.)
abnormalcy AND stimulation
it’s a combo of liking things because they are stimulating enough, but also because they are not-normal, not-typical as well….
wonder how much on which occasions.
everything is like this for me, as explained by The First Epiphany.(we’ll get to what that is another time:)
don’t self-judge so quickly
surely I would be so intolerant of different opinions than mine, if I didn’t take everything personally…
hypocrite dish-ers unable to take it
I’ve known a couple people who
1. had a distinctive personality trait, usually something socially kinda not all that appropriate in the amount of it they had (I like such things.)
2. I would befriend them due to their extreme nature, so to speak, and
3. take up what they did as something I did. perhaps. (this goes back at least as far as 1998)
4. eventually, they would “criticize” ME for being too that way…. when the only reason I was bringing it out was due to their cue.
needless to say, regardless of what is true, (simple misunderstanding, people change, I was immature, or they were, whatever)
I’m gonna start the analysis of it with “they were (censored) losers.”
I thought they were cool until I revealed that there thing was just an act.
or whatever.
not important. the 90s, after all.
minor scales of various kinds, Wagner
dude gettaloadathis:
k, so I just fathomed
that
1. you can take a minor scale (natural minor, that is)
2. raise the 6th to make it Dorian
3. ALSO raise the 4th….
after which it will contain within it a fully diminished 7 chord, DIATONICALLY.
I THEN realized that this is in fact the 4th mode of Harmonic minor (a scale I once referred to as “snake-charmer-y.” (once, long ago.)
why?
because moments into Track one of Die Walkure by Wagner, PRECISELY this happens….
what was a descending “natural” minor scale, suddenly becomes THIS,
and POOF! it takes on a totally different, darker, vibrant, and tense harmony.
love diminishedness, I do.
D C Bb A G F E D becomes
D C B-nat a G# F E D…
ooooohhhhh yeah, a chilling exciting moment, harmonically, musically, lifely… THIS is what it’s all about, these feelings, I tell you!
this particular part happens at 3 minutes up till 3:30
So I’ve got a New Plan and The Gershwin-Schoenberg Argument
ok so I’ve got a new plan, 11 24 2014
1. I will do the “big project-related” thing FIRST thing in the morning.
2. I will not waste time on facebook or other “highly addictive and low-yield stimulations (I didn’t say porn), by using the APP “Self Control” (it’s really an application. http://selfcontrolapp.com
3. I will “carry over” the energy of being warmed up, with a BIG project that helps me FOCUS, into the things I NEED to do, smaller, responsibility type things.
and, the entire time, I will bear in mind that
I need to do things MY way, and only need to take advice from others on how THEY would do things
AFTER I have done them my way and failed so bloody much that it only makes sense to ask others, not the reverse as is usually the case.
lets do it.
p.s. the skull and crossbones really is the icon for that app, it’s not illegit, I use it often.
p.p.s this is because I’m ADD, or ADHD, and without something that I “actually care about”, I am kinda highly dysfunctional, and an emotional mess, and all my energies go towards self-blame and trying to act like other people (which I am terrible at) and the whole enterprise is very wasteful, instead of just BEING myself and using MY skills.
Gershwin of George fame once, supposedly, sought composition lessons from no less than Arnold Schoenberg.
reportedly, Schoenberg declined, saying something akin to
“but if I gave you composition lessons, you’d just become a bad Schoenberg; you’re already sich a great Gerswhin!”
I call this
“The Gershwin-Scheonberg Argument,” it being an argument for being oneself and using one’s own strengths, rather than shamefully squandering them.