computers are TOO COMPLICATED. for my adhd brain. I need ONE TASK, and ONE TASK ONLY… to get anything done….
I need NO OTHERS AVAILABLE AT ALL.
(that’s not all I need, but one thing at a time.)
Category Archives: Philosophy
philosophy
abnormalcy AND stimulation
it’s a combo of liking things because they are stimulating enough, but also because they are not-normal, not-typical as well….
wonder how much on which occasions.
everything is like this for me, as explained by The First Epiphany.(we’ll get to what that is another time:)
don’t self-judge so quickly
surely I would be so intolerant of different opinions than mine, if I didn’t take everything personally…
hypocrite dish-ers unable to take it
I’ve known a couple people who
1. had a distinctive personality trait, usually something socially kinda not all that appropriate in the amount of it they had (I like such things.)
2. I would befriend them due to their extreme nature, so to speak, and
3. take up what they did as something I did. perhaps. (this goes back at least as far as 1998)
4. eventually, they would “criticize” ME for being too that way…. when the only reason I was bringing it out was due to their cue.
needless to say, regardless of what is true, (simple misunderstanding, people change, I was immature, or they were, whatever)
I’m gonna start the analysis of it with “they were (censored) losers.”
I thought they were cool until I revealed that there thing was just an act.
or whatever.
not important. the 90s, after all.
minor scales of various kinds, Wagner
dude gettaloadathis:
k, so I just fathomed
that
1. you can take a minor scale (natural minor, that is)
2. raise the 6th to make it Dorian
3. ALSO raise the 4th….
after which it will contain within it a fully diminished 7 chord, DIATONICALLY.
I THEN realized that this is in fact the 4th mode of Harmonic minor (a scale I once referred to as “snake-charmer-y.” (once, long ago.)
why?
because moments into Track one of Die Walkure by Wagner, PRECISELY this happens….
what was a descending “natural” minor scale, suddenly becomes THIS,
and POOF! it takes on a totally different, darker, vibrant, and tense harmony.
love diminishedness, I do.
D C Bb A G F E D becomes
D C B-nat a G# F E D…
ooooohhhhh yeah, a chilling exciting moment, harmonically, musically, lifely… THIS is what it’s all about, these feelings, I tell you!
this particular part happens at 3 minutes up till 3:30
paying for subscriptions is wrong
I think it is pretty wrong to charge for “subscriptions” to things. I ain’t payin for no such thing. not with something like music. or videos. it seems to me “entirely evil” to charge on an ongoing basis for “access” to something that you should be able to buy, own, and KEEP, once off, particularly if this has been the way it always HAS been. capitalism is not supposed to be regressive in this way.
I mean, is this how spotify works? (I honestly do not know yet.)
I thought it was wrong when cell phones did it. you should pay for what you use, no more.
So I’ve got a New Plan and The Gershwin-Schoenberg Argument
ok so I’ve got a new plan, 11 24 2014
1. I will do the “big project-related” thing FIRST thing in the morning.
2. I will not waste time on facebook or other “highly addictive and low-yield stimulations (I didn’t say porn), by using the APP “Self Control” (it’s really an application. http://selfcontrolapp.com
3. I will “carry over” the energy of being warmed up, with a BIG project that helps me FOCUS, into the things I NEED to do, smaller, responsibility type things.
and, the entire time, I will bear in mind that
I need to do things MY way, and only need to take advice from others on how THEY would do things
AFTER I have done them my way and failed so bloody much that it only makes sense to ask others, not the reverse as is usually the case.
lets do it.
p.s. the skull and crossbones really is the icon for that app, it’s not illegit, I use it often.
p.p.s this is because I’m ADD, or ADHD, and without something that I “actually care about”, I am kinda highly dysfunctional, and an emotional mess, and all my energies go towards self-blame and trying to act like other people (which I am terrible at) and the whole enterprise is very wasteful, instead of just BEING myself and using MY skills.
Gershwin of George fame once, supposedly, sought composition lessons from no less than Arnold Schoenberg.
reportedly, Schoenberg declined, saying something akin to
“but if I gave you composition lessons, you’d just become a bad Schoenberg; you’re already sich a great Gerswhin!”
I call this
“The Gershwin-Scheonberg Argument,” it being an argument for being oneself and using one’s own strengths, rather than shamefully squandering them.