something I seem to take for granted ALL of the time is that
1. I have some nifty musical knowledge at all, and that
2. I have A TON of musical friends who love music so much that they actually make it, no matter how difficult, and that
3. I live in a place which has, all things considered, A LOT of such people, (even if there are a billion more people who are not these.)
I really do like that.
how awful would it be to lose that.
how much more tragic would it be to never have discovered it.
see? life really is pretty amazing.
Category Archives: Self-Helping
what would I do if
Thought of the Day 1 29 2015
what would I have done if I WERE ADHD, but had UNSHAKABLE CONFIDENCE… instead of the belief that I am unlovable and invalid (with the only things capable of overcoming said belief being adhd-related Highly Stimulating things…)
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if you believed you were lovable and valid
!!! question of the day, of the year, of LIFE:
“what would you do if you believed you were lovable and were valid?”
(uber profound)
believe good things about yourself.
believe good things about yourself.
as if your life depended on it.
cause it kinda does.
is MY high stimulation music right for you
so, as a HYPER dude (an ADHD dude, whatever…)
what RIGHT do I have, to TELL OTHER people who are ADHD, that MY MUSIC OF CHOICE might be right for THEM?
that it might help THEM feel EXTREME JOY and give THEIR some direction as well?
(this is rhetorical)
(I PLAY a lot of said music, I organize groups and rehearse and perform it, not just listening (though listening is the bomb as well.)
I want to maybe do it with YOU TOO, whomever you are, if you are the right person, THE RIGHT MONKEYS….
today it’s this, though I don’t currently have a SAMBA group (and never HAVE had, one of MY own, though I’ve been in others’s a little.)
more of this, more of this, yes.
My Limiting Beliefs are Lies
…that happiness doesn’t exist, is a lie…
…that even if it does, I don’t deserve because I’m fundamentally bad, is a lie…
…that happiness doesn’t exist, is a lie…
…that even if it does, I don’t deserve because I’m fundamentally bad, is a lie…
Awesome Brazilian Music, high stim yes
TOMBO by AIRTO MOREIRA
THIS be some of the kind of music that is INCESSANT, UNRELENTING and AWESOME TO LISTEN TO AND PERFORM AND DANCE TO ALWAYS
(if the very beginning is “too slow for you”, go farther ahead, thou shalt not be disappointed.
though the beginning is FUNKY and PHAT, OH YES!
I could seriously hear this all day
you too? 
never too late to love oneself
seems it is never to late
to decide you like yourself
you love yourself
that you DO have things to offer
that you ARE valid,
that you ARE lovable.
I mean, you’ve spent your whole life “not asking” for things you would if you DID believe these things,
why not change and behave this better way instead?
I can indeed think of no reason:)
(my therapist taught me this. I did too, it would seem.)
she is very good. so am I.
HIGH STIMULATION MUSIC, mine 1 24 15
There is some music and dance that I REALLY REALLY love to play, and listen to.
it is of SUCH intense joy, that it pretty much is my favorite thing in life.
my PERSONAL TASTE in such matters is pretty much as follows:
(in no particular order of puesto (course)
1. James Brown
2. Wagner, namely The Ring, Der Ring des Nibelungen
3. plenty of West African Dance-Drumming, from Ghana, Guinea, Mali, Ivory Coast, etc.
4. The Planets by Gustav Holst
5. The Rite of Spring by Igor Stravinsky
6. Brazilian Music, particularly Brazilian Jazz
7. and yes, there’s always “Jazz”, yes yes.
8. don’t leave out CERTAIN HARMONIES (I’ll get to which ones)
and
9. STEVE REICH’s Minimalist Music and that of
10.. PHILIP GLASS as well.
African Dance, yes yes yes…. doing that is one of the awesomest things ever… total exhaustion, VERY stimulating, so much so that at the end, you are exhausted… and yet, you would (and do) continue dancing for more hours…
THIS is what I want… THIS is HIGH STIMULATION.
THIS is LIFE.
James Brown once said something along the lines of “I want to give them MORE than they came for, I want to make them (the audience) tired, ’cause THAT’S what they came for!”
Energy Usage.
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…
…
perhaps I am a Hedonist. (perhaps I should google such terms before I use them, not “completely
certain if I have the right word in mind. (but where’s the fun in that, where’s the fun in that, inDeed…)
ADHD MUSIC.., 1 24 2015
ADHD be a touchy subject for me, yes.
I just searched “ADHD MUSIC” without quotes.
what I seem to find (I haven’t found out for sure yet (see above)
are presumably
websites that have music that apparently
HELP
(sigh… grumble…seeth…..grrrrr)
HELP with ADHD…
I can only assume that that means that said music HELPS people with ADHD
(grrrrrrrr)
FUNCTION BETTER, or MORE NORMALLY (seething more….grrr)
in NORMAL SOCIETY, by
(fists clenched….. voice angry)
… by helping them be more normal, like everyone else…..
@($*%*#(%_#!!
!
needless to say… MY adhd music page is not about this, not in the same way at least (all presumption, I haven’t clicked on any of these sites; it’s 2:41 am and this is a touchy touchy subject, and I don’t wanna chance gettin all emotional and angry and resentful and vengeful (my life, my feelings) this late.
AS I was saying…
MY ADHD MUSIC pages (and my LIFE)
are not about helping us FUNCTION amongst figurative “mere mortals,” (that can mean anything from “Normal People” to “Non-ADHD people” to “Non-Artists”) at least, not in the same way, not by “denying” our impulses and need for “enough stimulation, by OUR measure, not be “normal people’s” but
by GETTING enough of said stimulation, whatever it is. (my life, after all.)
if I want to use ten times as much pepper on my eggs as most people do (as my best friend DOES IN FACT DO,) I fucking will.
TASTE.
if I were gay, I’d be gay. it is for no one to TELL ME I should have different TASTES or crave DIFFERENT AMOUNTS different ways different ANYTHINGS than I do.
and if I want to play African Music from Ghana for 4 or 5 hours until I can barely stand because it is a HELL of a good time (as I did last night), until I am exhausted and need to drink a lotta water and then coffee to drive all the way home, if THIS is what makes me HAPPY, then it BLOODY WELL IS!!!
JOY! and get outta my face if you think a “proper” night is spent reading or watching tv or sports or drinking or being with a loved one (not that I don’t enjoy that too.)
MY ADHD RESOURSE CENTER, (that might be a little formal for my tastes (sure as hell is)
is about THIS, not THAT.
THAT is fitting in, self-denial (I didn’t read no Neiztsche, no I didn’t)
THIS is BEING OURSELVES.
and feel free to criticize me as incredibly infantile and juvenile, that’s your prerogative indeed.
Become Awesomeness
Become Excitement
Become Interaction
Become Engagement
BECOME ENERGY USAGE, FLOW, MOVEMENT.
BECOME IT SO MUCH YOU ARE EXHAUSTED.
“THIS” is life. (at least sometimes.)
don’t worry. there is compromise involved in life.
we’ll get to that.
first we start from this place. this place right here.
p.s. this post may seem a little extreme, yes it may. everything’s fine, just strong words and strong feelings is all, folks. everything’s fine.