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Behaving the way I want

THOUGHT of the day, 1 10 2015
(among many many others as always)

I’M NOT interested in determining an appropriate way to behave for the situation I’m in;
I’M interested in BEING in situations appropriate to the way I want to behave.

I’m GONNA behave the way I WANT,
if it’s not appropriate “here”, I’ll go someplace where it IS.

so THERE:)

i.e,

 

I adjust the form for the content, not the content for the form.

 

tagged burningman because this “happened” at burningman (2003, 2005, and almost 2015 as well.)

 

HERE”””’s an idea.

HERE”””’s an idea.

acting like there’s an urgent deadline even when there’s not.

no small challenge for me.

I was always amazed by the behavior of goody-tw-shoes kids who did their homework friday afternoon, rather than sunday night…

perhaps I should try it though….

this whole “oh, bedtime tonight is at 2:20am, and it’s only 9 now, so we can put off anything important for several hours, but then we never get to it” thing is… well, less than productive I do say.

other peoples’ behavior isn’t about you

-recognizing when other peoples’s behavior is not a reflection on you at all, is important.

for parents, in various situations, perhaps cultures…

you can that stop imposing your will on others, for how they behave, their instincts, their interests, their modes of expression, are not in fact an expression of much of anything to do with you, but of them.

I find it alarming (though experience of those close to me) that persons should feel guilty through letting others define them.

fucks sake, the hell with the system, and persons your age, define your damn self.

we really ought to teach kids this, instead of what happened to me.

the last Leitmotif in Gotterdammerung…

! is “The Redemption Motif”
NOT
the LAST ONE, in Gotterdammerung, in The Ring?

though I’ve always considered that penultimate “IV iv” 
DURING said motif, seconds from the end, to be just that, a IV, to a iv, (to the I of course soon)
is it not in fact one of those insidious ring-related motifs, perchance that of
“The Power of The Ring”????

 

http://i.ytimg.com/vi/sFNjE9fapuM/maxresdefault.jpg

relations of four chords a minor third apart are

-MY how cool the relations of the four chords a minor third apart are…

surely it’s just coincidence, somehow.

HOW LONG have composers made use of these?

Alan Silvestri and John Williams both did, (back to the future, star wars,) but fuck me, who else did?  and not just two major keys a minor 3rd apart, but three or four, preferable those such as

GM, BbM, DbM AND EM…

fear of boredom? um…

…it’s possible that I am AFRAID of the feeling of boredom, (whatever that means to me.)
I might be afraid to commit (to anything) due to this, including to things that I want, or wanted, or might want, or want in part, at some time.
you might think this is incredibly infantile, and it might indeed be, if it were you, but it’s an integral part of being adhd, for me, I say.

but then yet again,
it might just be a fear that if you lose interest in something, that THAT isn’t ok, and then you’d feel guilty about THAT, and not guilty that you lost interest, but that you didn’t DESERE to lose interest.

I really should keep going with this
“I am a good person just because, and I deserve to be normal and human” thing, without qualification…

many different (and similar) musics

THAT’s me,

1. driving down to WAGNER, (made that up actually, today it was driving down to a phone conversation)
2. listening to JAMES BROWN
3. reading a book about harmony by SCHOENBERG, and
4. going to AFRICAN DRUM class soon.
likely coming home to
5. JAZZ tonight.

harmonic structure

harmonic structure…

an interesting and I’D say CRYPTIC term indeed…

p.s. don’t ruin my “fun.” I know I could google it or ask someone, but for now, for RIGHT now this MOMENT: I wanna keep thinking that the possible definitions and large and small concepts that a given person has in mind when they use this ‘term’ are myserious, perhaps conflicting…

p.s.
just a sentence or two about the term HARMONIC STRUCTURE, and my wonderment at what “different” persons, perchance schoenberg, would mean by it

energy usage-

as far as my “not liking being part of things that are average or normal or otherwise less-than-interesting”

it’s not true when my senses DO deem them stimulating, interesting, etc.

like that vid there. funfun. notes. endorphins.

ENERGY USAGE.

I WANT THIS.