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try things no matter what
not bothering to try things because you are afraid of disappointing someone…
that can’t be a good way to live.
do not self-judge quickly…
…Rushing to a perfectionist self-judgement of nearly everything you do, right away, even during or before you do it… or to a comparison with other people, be they real or imagined, or simply mis-perceived…
never good.
simply don’t do it.
start by recognizing that you do it.
then just stop.
and move forward. really hard to relax it can be, if you are not used to it.
but you must.
move forward and make mistakes and be in the unknown anyway.
otherwise you’ll just stay where you are, which, if this resonates, you don’t really want to be.
“FREE CRACK!!” (sugar, I mean)
Once, at JAVA JOE’S (it’s been called just JAVA’s for 16 years)
in Rochester, NY (I just told another story moments ago about this same coffeehouse, my first.)
they took all the “solidified” sugar from the bottoms of the glass sugar containers, (most of which were like two inches across, as if they were frozen) and put them on a white paper plate on the counter, and made a sign that said
“FREE CRACK!”
I ate one.
it was delicious.
and I LOVE that they would make a sign that said that.
that shows a sense of humor.
to hell with corporate FAKE cameraderie. sp.
I’m for the REAL thing.
now gimme some free sugar and call it crack.
water my flames
it feels like I am a
tense
fearful
defensive
and
Angry Being, not to mention a Fiery High-Energy one of Passion as well.
perhaps my flames shall be cooled by water.
not put out, just made less self-damaging.
I seldom try hard enough
I seldom try hard enough, even at all.
let’s remember this.
harmony from guess where…
DM GM AM
bm GM bm
fm f#m gm abm (I see a pattern here)
e dim 7 —> am….and THEN….
fm…. The Ring Motif…..
not from Wagner, no.
from the end of the 3rd Hobbit movie of course…
(I determined all those chords as I always do, by listening to it and writing them down.
life in such a manner is easy and awesome with perfect pitch. smile.
punishing kids like this is wrong
here is a petition to get rid of an apparent policy where they make kids SIT AND STARE AT A WALL for NINETY MINUTES as punishment, in, of all places, MY SCHOOL DISTRICT in rochester NY where I am from (I’ll not say “grew up”… cause… well, that would imply that I did so.)
https://www.change.org/p/west-irondequoit-board-of-education-overturn-jeff-crane-s-abusive-sit-and-stare-policy?recruiter=10947751&utm_source=share_petition&utm_medium=facebook&utm_campaign=autopublish&utm_term=des-lg-share_petition-reason_msg&fb_ref=Default
Hey. I’m from here. I went to numerous schools here. As a creative artist, I’m ADHD and proud of it. I learned a lot about music in Irondequoit schools from grade 4 all the way through high school graduation (after which I continued to study music (and to perform and teach it) to this day.
School was hard enough, what with other kids berating me for talking fast and being different.
I persisted, even got a lot of A
s in high school. (and I WASN’T on adhd-meds at that time.)
If I had been treated like this, FOR BEING DIFFERENT, for being higher energy (which, to put it politely, is no crime,) if I had been “Labeled” MORE THAN I ALREADY WAS….
to this day I suffer from believing that I am unlovable and invalid, and “how I was treated by mom and dad AND kids (and teachers) at school has
EVERYTHING to do with that…
if I had been made to sit and stare for NINETY MINUTES… BECAUSE OF HOW MY BRAIN WORKS, the SPEED of it.., my DIFFERENCES in LEARNING and THINKING than “AVERAGE PEOPLE” (that, normal people,)
Imagine how much MORE guilty and shameful I’d feel, JUST BECAUSE I AM MYSELF and not someone else!
I DESERVE TO BE HAPPY whether I think and learn and act the same as everyone else or not.
there are plenty of ways of “helping” children of ALL varieties GET THROUGH school.
treating them like they are broken and bad and criminals isn’t one of them.
stop this now.
suffering, compassion, and not judging
judging… sometimes I find it easy to think that people who have suffered less than me, don’t REALLY understand suffering at all…
yet…. what would people who have suffered far MORE than I think, of ME, if they thought this way?
I shouldn’t judge.
but it’s hard not to, sometimes.
surely that (?) means that I am not fully at peace with MY OWN suffering yet.
good thing there’s more of life left, and more therapy left.
INAPPROPRIATE ORCHESTRATION.
I seem to be a fan of shall we say
INAPPROPRIATE ORCHESTRATION.
GLockenspiels (three of them) playing in their LOWEST registers, and NOT using them in the “expected” manner, etc.