not liking yourself………. seems to result in a wide variety of seemingly unrelated and BIZARRE things….
such as but not limited to
1. seeking love from people who have none to give you
2. spending time around the wrong kind of people
3. trying to change people, (into ones who make you feel loved.)
4. ignoring it when people DO like you.
5. in various ways, using other people somehow approving of you INSTEAD of, IN PLACE of, your own self approving of you.
6. when people DO like you, abandoning THEM, and moving on, because no amount of “others’s liking you” can ever really compensate for you doing so yourself.
7. even trying to make “certain” other people behave in certain ways, as if if they do not, it is confirmation that you are not likable, but if they DO, you abandon them, and move on to the “next” “conquest”, always empty victories they, as, as above-stated, they can NEVER equal your missing self-love.
perhaps this is why my nice therapist is and has always been saying to take care of my proverbial inner child, and to tell myself that I like myself, that I love myself, etc.
nothing else will work nearly as good. it’s all like junk food instead of healthy food, pornography instead of romance, etc.