starting things isn’t all that easy.
finishing them doesn’t seem to take commitment, what it takes is giving enough of a fuck about them instead of ten or a million other “equally as interesting if not more so” things that you also could start.
for after all…
I want what you want…
…
I want
Everything.
Monthly Archives: July 2015
Happiness. enough, I may indeed have.
I make some money this month (less than required, but more than usual by plenty. (July’s always like this.)
It has occurred to me,
if I had sorta enough money, not millions, just thousands)
and was playing some music,
that would be enough to be happy.
should it not be.
it is.
and I gots and have always had the music, lucky me.
guess things really ain’t that bad then:)
thank everyone for my nifty education, in the normal stuff (I went to a good high school, though I may not have appreciated it then (Irondequoit:)
and
learned nifty music stuff at Hochstein school in downtown Rochester,
and at SUNY Potsdam Crane School And and
Cadets Drum Corps
and at the Boat (long story)
and hanging around Eastman school
and CalArts.
and in life.
me happy.
Thought of the Day, perhaps the life:
Thought of the Day, perhaps the life:
don’t give the care of your inner child over to the wrong people, to incompetent/disinterested people.
including those emotionally unavailable or detached.
You’re Welcome.
doing what’s cool versus necessary
my problem is not with doing what’s necessary, instead of what is best, what is cool, what is good.
(yeah, what kinda shitty world is this where what is cool, best, good, and interesting ARE NOT the things that are necessary anyway? but I digress.0
my problem is when people
do what’s cool
then they do what’s necessary, (and it is almost always, artistically, remember,
super lame, trite, and just utterly sucks (thanks, corporate mentality.)
THEN, they make MILLONS of dollars, which would enable them to again do what’s cool.
BUT…
THEY DON’T!
WHAT KINDA SHIT IS THAT?!?!?!?!
…never be ashamed of being normal, human
…never be ashamed of being normal, human
yes, that.
#selflove
selflove, not the love of others, (gods included) is the thing.
if I believed I had a lot to offer-
if I-
1. believed I had a lot to offer, and
2. was actually interested in taking part in the system and in other peoples’s basically bullshit jive-ass way of doing things…
what would I do…
that’s two questions…
ok, let’s rephrase:
if I;
1. believed I had a lot to offer and-
2. could at least “try” to do things however “I” would have them done,
what would I do…
hm, surprisingly hard to answer.
I want less-generic artistic forms
the typical artistic FORMS in which art stuff is presented…. sometimes trouble me. like, they seem antiquated, arbitrary, artificial, un-natural.
bringing to mind that quote on the wild beast at CalArts.
if you create a pre-prepared presentatio ( PR PR PR PR (wipe off the microphone)
for an audience… you kinda patronize them, you kinda remove them from the experience, prevent them from immersing themselves in it, spectaclize it.
I prefer when people are just dropped in, have to fend for themselves and figure things out, and they may indeed be confused as fuck a good long time. what’s wrong with it(I don’t care what is, nothing is.)
I felt that way in the Wachowski’s films. several of em (you know the ones) didn’t explain all that well what the fuck was goin on… more like a new experience, you’re indeed at a loss until you figure out what’s goin on, which DOES take a lotta time.
hell, learning to play music well didn’t happen in a few days. nor a few weeks.
nor months. nor even years. maybe decades.
so what.
do it anyway and start now.
you’re gonna die.
to be continued.