had UTTERLY AMAZING ideas tonight, folks.
in short, in some ways, I don’t know what I’m talking about, and must stop acting like do, feeling like I should, trying to, and judging myself as If I should.

I need to be a beginner, (which in truth I am) and learn, as a small child might, for I do not yet know enough to even know what I like or what I want, when it comes to some things.

the standards of things about which I DO know what I like, and AM experienced, must NOT be used on these other, inexperienced things, any more.

well, yes, this is the way of things, then.