if you don’t like/love yourself,
you won’t LET others like you (love as well) and
if they get to close, you’ll actively do things to PUSH them away, sabotage.
seems to be a “reflective” in and out type of situation.
so, like yourself. then you’ll allow others to.
funny when you step back into something you haven’t done in a while…
after a bit,
it’s just “there”, all again…
like magic.
even if you would have to think if you had to explain to someone what you were doing, when it comes to just DOING it, it’s just THERE…. like walking.
(unless it is a videogame from the supernintendo… with something “that” old you might need a little practice first.)
how many times and in how many ways have I injured myself, seemingly permanently, dancing ATSIAGEBKOR?
can’t even figure.
ok, so now I’m supposed to read Schoenberg’s “Structural Functions of Harmony”
I bet I’ll like it.
ok so minor keys don’t usually have II chords that are MAJOR< which would be diatonic to the Lydian mode, yes?
I have known that one of the main themes from the soundtrack to V FOR VENDETTA has such a chord (a dominant seventh chord, in that case.)
I just noticed, while watching the ever-grim film
CITIZEN X (about the Soviet Serial Killer)
it TOO features a minor chord, b minor, followed by Db (or C#) Major…, prominently.
and both films feature actor Steven Rea, wouldn’t you know…(in both films, he is in the role of a cop (or something similar) looking, the whole film, for an elusive bad guy, and in both films, he nearly catches him early in the film but does not…)
dude DUDE…
Major Scale, Sharp FIVE.
and the seven (including itself) modes of IT.
fascating…. Lydian Sharp TWO…
the 3rd mode, is (if it’s a Bb Major Sharp 5) is
D Eb F# G A Bb C D…
Major, flat 6, 7, AND 2…
stage 3, of NINJA GAIDEN III uses this, of all things (that’s how I thought of it…)
I mean, dude, that’s like Flamenco music, ain’t it?
Major, b6, b7, b2?
I like myself.
I like myself.
it’s pretty great, being in a place where you feel safe being UNself-conscious, UNjudged, like you BELONG.
slowly but surely, this place expands outward from where it first happens for you, to other places too,
even though the “people” in those “other places” may be by and large not that fun.
YOU are.
better than nothin.
and still-
it’s nice to be in the original place too.
I knew a guy named ***, and a woman named ####, in undergrad.
both played trumpet (not at CalArts, before it.)
people, I think a bit disparagingly, called him “Cool ***” (he simply had one of those kinda charismatic NYC voices, that’s all, and he smiled a lot, that’s all,)
and the other, people called, Crackhead ####.
BOTH, behind their back, NEVER to their face.
I of course, didn’t see why either name would be offensive IN THE SLIGHTEST,
so I of course, called both of them these nicknames TO THEIR FACE,
MOST UN-self-consciously (and proud of it, thank you very much.)
It’s not that was socially inept, but I simply didn’t find those terms offensive, nor see any reason why they should be.
if the names had ACTUALLY hurt their feelings, (and if they had ACTUALLY, CLEARly communicated to me that they DID,)
I’d have of course not used them.
I tend to assume, when I talk to people DIRECTLY, that they mean what they say. (I usually do, myself.)
hell yeah.
(to this day, when someone has a nickname (usually something I cook up myself,) I ASK them, POINT FUCKING BLANK, do they mind if I use it, for I had pretty uncool nicknames when I was little. I won’t want to hurt their feelings if using the nickname would, but again, alas,
they need to be clear with me about their true feelings.”)
omG! just heard the MOST RIDICULOUS LINES from the new Muppet Show…
Fozzie: “YOU haven’t been shot with a tranquilizer dart!”
Kermit: “No, but I did lick my cousin once, and then the wall started melting, so I FEEL ya, bro!”
HAHAHAHAHAAH!!!