so dude DUDE, I now bring to you

this rapid fire exchange between me and myself, about, well, a LONG list of things I want to do…. I was writing and writing more and more things and details, when I suddenly STOPPED…. hammer ti-nooo. I stopped and asked these questions.

p.s. “the ZEITGEIST question” is defined as follows:
it concerns whether I am doing whatever it is that I do, the way I do,
to be the most effective in conventional ways, like most people, basically, conforming, compromising, OR:
for myself, for my ego, for stimulation, and accepting the results.

an example follows at the end:

“wait000. HOW do you want to go ABOUT doing these things though> and how does THAT differ than how others would….
and…. how or why is that important?
are you trying to do something that is the most likely to be successful, ORRRR, are you trying to do something that is in line with YOUR OPINIONS about how YOU would/are doing/do it???

the zeitgeist question, ah yes.
well?
debate, between me and myself:
why should I do it the average/typical way?
I think my way might work BETTER.
when I do it the average way, I don’t UNDERSTAND the results. it doesn’t make any SENSE to me, I don’t AGREE WITH what the data MEANS………
people SAY “this person assumed this, when you did that.”
how do they know, I don’t think they SHOULD assume it, and my BELIGERRANTNESS seeks to UPEND it and CALL THEM OUT, saying WHY would you assume that, you SHOULDN”T.

is this about you, sir?

is it?
yes.

we are wrestling, having a TUSSLE, aboutst the zeitgeist question yes.
i this about about doing what other people think works,
or about doing what I think would work?doing what I think works (as I’m typing this, I’m getting REAL HAPPY< as the cool (low A and LOW D part of DEEP IN A DRUM comes onOOH yeah…)

THAT”S what I want.

so, it’s about EGO, sir.
I’ma LEADER!!! HAHAHA! I’m more happy to you egotistical bastard! HAHAHAHA!!!””

now for an example of the Zeitgeit Question:

I could learn to do and say what others do, say, in dating, or job searching, or interacting, or people-pleasing or networking, or dressing, etc. because people JUST DO, or because I am genuinely afraid (I’m not. at all.) that “something terrible and humiliating” will happen if I dare not fit in (it won’t, and I feel sorry for people who think so. even if I DO get excluded from things because of my honesty and not giving a fuck.

in the words of Groucho Marx, when, after having been excluded from a country club BECAUSE THEY WERE JEWISH, later, when they because famous movie stars, they were invited to said club, Groucho is reported to have told them, on behalf of The Marx Brothers:

“I wouldn’t want to be in any club that would accept me as a member.”

i.e, fuck off with yas, we don’t need you.

AHEM< I was attempting to give an example of The Zeitgeist Question in action, here it is:

I could learn to do and say what others do, say, in dating, or job searching, or interacting, or people-pleasing or networking, or dressing, etc. because people JUST DO.

or I could do those things in ways that make ME feel good RIGHT AWAY, refusing to play the game, (why would I want to be accepted, if I have to be someone else to become accepted? pardon me but I’d rather starve.)

sorry, but can’t think too well right now, gotta go eat.

if this is such a bad idea, then why do people admire me for it?

cause I’m a LEADER, bitches.

onthefuck ward!

fuckin A, just START something and KEEP FUCKING GOING!!!

and LISTEN to this tune… DO IT