so what would I want if I could have anything, and does it exist…
answer this
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not to be full of myself, but
not to be full of myself, but I’ve really got different standards than a lot of people (and I’m talking about the HIGHER kind)
more about WHY later…
Love the Female Body
hey news flash: there are some things that one should be offended by.
but the female body and sex are NOT two of them.
I don’t understand long term planning, it seems
I have a friend who just told me they are committed to other projects “through JUNE of next year.”
I simply don’t fathom how that is humanly possible.
here I am, with “no” gigs booked, and very little to do, except look for work, and do the little work I have.
I don’t know what I’m doing tomorrow.
I don’t fathom how one get’s a life like that person.
except maybe they look for things to do and keep going incessantly.
I don’t really do that unless I really want something:)
giving myself to be normal and human…
giving myself to be normal and human…
is good.
wish I’d felt this way when I was little, mighta saved a lotta heartache.
the right people, I ain’t interested in changing people
… I ain’t interested in changing people’s minds and converting them to be like me, I’m interested in getting together a bunch of “the right people” and doing something awesome.
safe things = no way
safe things that are sure bets financially are seldom worth anything.
this is why I disdain doing reasonable easy projects that don’t require much effort.
they’re fucking boring and don’t do anything for me.
I want big, loud, dangerous and lively, thank you. (who’s on welfare now? all them people who always take the safe and easy way, rather than taking risks, creatively or otherwise. )
thought of the day, and advice to those who seek to do cool collaborations of the awesomest, HIGHEST calibur, MOST PERFECT-EST…
thought of the day, and advice to those who seek to do cool collaborations of the awesomest, HIGHEST calibur, MOST PERFECT-EST…
to those who have HIGH standards, and want SPECIFIC THINGS that are perchance highly un-
-usual
-reasonable or
IM-
practical
“don’t expect people to be cool, because almost all of them aren’t.”
addendum:
1. cool is defined as being the right ones for the above job.
2. I know TONS of such people. you are my friends (some of them.)
meaning: take heart, and know what you look for, and look REAL HARD high and low for it. and collect a ton of it. but start by realizing that if you’re like me, a high-standarded perfectionist with tall orders like this, know that almost everyone isn’t what you’re looking for.
then find the exceptions and find as many as possible.
the hell with social norms
yep.
in keeping with this theme I heard of tonight of “what the fuck am I, a musician, doing with my life?”
in keeping with this theme I heard of tonight of “what the fuck am I, a musician, doing with my life?” which I heard from at least three friends tonight, I shall say:
what should I be doing, and how should I be doing it, and woe is me but how do I always have not a clue what to do, when everyone else?
and fuck’s sake, don’t tell me that no one else does, it’s bullshit!
everyone else doing this is “DOING” SOMETHING.
I’M NOT. I’m just SITTING here.
other people are PLAYING MUSIC, WRITING MUSIC, RECORDING MUSIC (ok, yes, I do a little of that, yes, a little playing, yes.)
but other people have DOZENS more gigs than I, many more students, more connections, more ACTUAL ACTIONS,
more of a sense of “WHAT” the options even “ARE.”
I NEVER get this, ever!
in anything.
fucks sake, where “IS” my attention…
p.s. you likely won’t be able to advise me.
if you say your advice the wrong way (not easy to explain what “the wrong way” is,) It’ll just glance of me, I’ll not hear it, I’ll fight it, or decide you’re a dick.
so confusing, life, yes.