a lot of the typical ways of doing things, I just don’t like. not because they are common, because they are lamer than a way I would have them done.
Category Archives: CalArts (California Institute of the Arts)
the norms of society
understanding the norms of society “normally” involves noticing several things:
1. they absolutely suck
2. they are completely boring
3. infinitely better ways of doing EVERYTHING are possible
4. they are designed with average people in mind.
5. not questioning these norms, not thinking, and not doing something BETTER is very very bad. and it makes me enraged that this seems to be what most people choose to do (because they are lazy?)
6. doing things for the most money instead of “any other human or humane reason AT ALL” is very very bad too. see previous posts on how this basically turns the world into garbage and creates misery for everyone but the richest, and frankly, creates it for them too because money doesn’t make you happy.
and again…
just think…
some day I won’t have to deal with it at all.
…
good thing there ‘are’ ‘good thoughts’ and ideas and feelings that in spite of “all that garbage” still exist and still are good.
ADHD Artsy Woman
hey if you’re a woman and ADHD and maybe artistic I think I wanna meet you.
growing up is over-rated.
growing up is over-rated.
details to come.
A ZeitGeist Question 4 7 15
the big question, … bringing to mind (my perhaps incorrect usage of the term)
ZEITGEIST….
of my life right now
is
“when am I doing things for others and when am I doing them for myself?”
and I don’t actually mean WHEN
I also mean why, how, and in what ways do I disagree with “typical people’s opinions” on this matter….
SEQUENCES OF IDEAS or DEVELOPMENT
on the validity of mere SEQUENCES OF IDEAS, rather than DEVELOPMENT of them, in music, and perhaps in conversation, or even thinking, or living.
I mean, what’s the point of “developing” something… you don’t have to “develop” seeing the sky, you see it, it’s blue, or azul, or whatever, and it’s beautiful. you don’t HAVE to “write poems” about it, or define it, it just IS.
MM! UMPH! why can’t music and sound just BE, sometimes? even in a John Cage sense… not ALL of them (but then again, why NOT all of them?) but bloody hell, if you find someting appealing, just BE with it, as long as you like. no need for a story, an arc, a narrative. no need for TELEOLOGY. just BE. DAMMIT just be.
COLOURS. FEELINGS. THE MOMENT. OVER AND OVER. THERE IS NOTHING WRONG WITH THIS.
ESPECIALLY IF YOU FIND IT PLEASANT.
I DON’T NEED to always be doing something NEW! some of the things I love to do I am happy doing MANY TIMES!!!
like if I was married… I wouldn’t need a new WOMAN all the time… would I?
I should think not, if I loved my wife.
and I don’t need new and different food all the time, even any of it (though in some ways a broader diet than I’ve got would be good, yes.)
some say variety is the spice of life. perhaps, but NO!start with basic contentment, no need to spice things up without things “TO” spice up.
and no I’m not advocating the perhaps materialist life path of the boomers, nor am I advocating maslows “incomplete” hierarchy of needs (he left out “the need to feel alive, in between the lowest two needs, but you couldn’t expect a non-adhd to know about that; it would be like saying that people need “oxygen” for happiness. and water. I mean, duh. he can be forgiven for the crime of having an “IN-UNIVERSE” perspective in his writing (in case you don’t know, that means writing a supposed encyclopedia article from the perspective of a fantasy world, rather than from OUTSIDE it, as is proper. though this does remind me of Fight Club and the device of UNRELIABLE NARRATOR, as used by JAMES JOYCE, yes.)
other people’s norms/my versions/my own
because using other people’s norms in the normal way is one thing (Rienzi, Das Liebesverbot, and Die Feen.)
adapting them for your own purposes is another, Der Fliegende Hollander, Tannhauser, Lohengrin, but
designing your very own with your purposes in mind from the BEGINNING is enTIREly another! (Der RIng (Rhinegold, Walkure, Siegfried, Gotterdammerung,) Tristan, Meistersinger, and Parsifal.
(those are the 13 opera’s by Wagner, the first two of which I believe never saw performance during his lifetime, the next three were him (I believe) adapting existing operatic styles (german, italian, and french, I think.. (Maybe I’m paraphrasing or remembering incorrectly)
and the remainder are his own, mature music dramas.
UNRESOLVED HARMONIES!! I WANT!!!
WHY DON’T I want things to reSOLVE harmonically?
Dammit! LEAVE the #4 THERE! LEAVE THE #4 TRITONE IN PLACE!!! BY ITSELF!!!! IT DOESN’T NEED A BLOODY RESOLUTION!!!
do not self-judge quickly…
…Rushing to a perfectionist self-judgement of nearly everything you do, right away, even during or before you do it… or to a comparison with other people, be they real or imagined, or simply mis-perceived…
never good.
simply don’t do it.
start by recognizing that you do it.
then just stop.
and move forward. really hard to relax it can be, if you are not used to it.
but you must.
move forward and make mistakes and be in the unknown anyway.
otherwise you’ll just stay where you are, which, if this resonates, you don’t really want to be.
water my flames
it feels like I am a
tense
fearful
defensive
and
Angry Being, not to mention a Fiery High-Energy one of Passion as well.
perhaps my flames shall be cooled by water.
not put out, just made less self-damaging.