I seldom try hard enough, even at all.
let’s remember this.
Category Archives: CalArts (California Institute of the Arts)
INAPPROPRIATE ORCHESTRATION.
I seem to be a fan of shall we say
INAPPROPRIATE ORCHESTRATION.
GLockenspiels (three of them) playing in their LOWEST registers, and NOT using them in the “expected” manner, etc.
Norms, Interesting, Abnorms, etc.
if music with cooler rhythms and harmonies was NORMAL, I’d be normal in a heartbeat.
but it’s not about being normal, it’s about what’s INTERESTING… to ME…
so, are you telling me,
A. many people ARE interested in “norms”
B. many people are in fact NOT, nor are they even IN TOUCH with what THEY ACTUALLY ARE interested in, and they just “conform because for some reason they are afraid of, even noticing that they don’t know what they would like,” much less admitting it, much less looking for or discovering it?
(it seems so.)
or, maybe many people just have simpler tastes than I and ARE satisfied by what is typical. maybe a lot of both.
I wanna do what’s interesting to ME.
don’t see what’s wrong with that.
either many people are just boring (to me,) or many people WOULD BE interesting, but haven’t faced up to it and become their would-be selves yet. likely a lot of both.
Gamelan, what have you done to me
every time I arrange a little marching band drumline type music (which happens, but I wish it did more often)
I always seem to, as some of the keyboard players are less experienced than others,
I always seem to have some of the melodic parts be “simplified” versions of more notey ones, with like half of their notes removed….
Gamelan,
what have you done to me…
greater individualism in business, not conformity
so it would seem that maybe a lot or most average business people are
NOT VERY IMAGINATIVE…
either that and/or they are sellouts, catering to average people and the lowest common denominator.
how else do you explain the fact that most of their ideas are status quo, not that interesting, when
SO
many more fabulously creative and interesting and
repeat after me-
IN-DI-VID-U-AL
things are possible?
like a bloody food or coffee establishment with a QUIRKY unusual menu, one that’s NOT designed to BE what all the other ones are but better,
but to be
DIFFERENT, different as in
IT-BLOODY SELF!!!!
like SELL INDIAN food, or self-help books, or art books, or architecture magazines, or some other QUIRKY shits that don’t usually or EVER go together! and play classical music on certain days, and miles davis only on thursdays at 1am or somethin.
don’t be what everyone else ALREADY IS, dammit.
Like CalArts, my school. (though I graduated ages ago, I don’t use the term alma mater, no no no.) I wouldn’t want to see IT turned into what most other schools ALREADY ARE, only a lousier version of them, while ALSO becoming a LESS “IT” version of ITSELF….
(this is called, by me, THE GERSHWIN-SCHOENBERG ARGUMENT.”
America Composer George Gershwin, (this may be made up, but who care)
may have approached 12-tone inventor Arnold Schoenberg, for “composition lessons” at one point.
apparently, Schoenberg (this, again, may be just legend, but it’s point is excellent maximus)
ahem, Schoenberg allegedly said that he would NOT give Gerswhin lessons, for “If I gave you lessons, you’d just become a bad Schoenberg…. you’re already such a great Gerswhin!”
that goes for PEOPLE TOO! especially my artist friends.
and seriously, anybody wanna partner up (that is, pay for) investing in such a thing, I’m seriously down. up hit me.
( I tagged this, among the usual things,
to do with “WOMEN” and “POLITICS” because well I think it could apply to politicians and to “people in the dating scene.” as well. stop trying to be what everyone ELSE Is, dammit, just BE. YOU. dammit.
all kinds, judging, energy, not judging
some people are monkeys, others are elephants, still others are ants, and others may be trees, or grass.
when it comes to how much energy I have or do not have, remember, judging yourself by the standards of the norms, or by the standards of those who are very different than you (in my case, less energetic)
makes about as much sense as judging en elephant on it’s ability to climb trees, or an ant on it’s ability to grow, like grass, etc.
perhaps this is what them people who are like “celebrate all, differences” are on about, as well as what those who say that a one-size-fits-all approach to education is bogus, which is pretty much true, about education, and everything.
booyah
learning, like a kid again, hopefully always
I am moving towards not believing these old negative things about myself.
as such, I’m more open to things, however, I am still very interested in what “normal people’s norms are” and where they come from and why…. though, I shall have my own norms… but due to those negative things (the belief that I do not deserve love, and am an invalid lesser human (not true, never was, alas,) I never LEARNED my own norms, I just avoided so many things. so, here I am…. new to a lotta experiences, as if I’m a kid. it’s nice.
(my not having my own norms, as if I have simply never tried doing so very many things, is ALSO of course due to being ADHD, and having my own tastes and personality just because, too.)
Lucky am I to have a nice therapist (and not for the first time.)
Call me full of myself
Call me full of myself
(I’m not, and Bollox to ya’s,) but
being smart is bloody lonely sometimes.
You have your own norms that work fine for you
and yet some people tell you that you should use the normal norms instead,
that yours are not valid. (they seldom say this directly, but that other way)
you don’t want to be left out,
bloody hell, all you want is
a little companionship,
and maybe a lotta sex,
all you want is to feel ok even though
there’s many of them and few of you.
not too much to ask.
screw light, let there be love.
let’s start with the self kind.
it is most important after all.
Trust Self. No Matter What.
trust self. no matter what.
trust self. no matter what.
trust self. no matter what.
trust self. no matter what.
TRUST SELF NO MATTER WHAT!!!!!
authenticness is liked by me, gotta do it
it seems I’ve gotta make my own little world, full of as many
authentic, bright and creative, non-sellout, interesting people as possible,
and some others too.
Haven’t I already been doing this forever?
gotta keep going and self-doubt less, it seems.
ONWARD
(see? very helpful, therapy is.)
trust self