!!! question of the day, of the year, of LIFE:
“what would you do if you believed you were lovable and were valid?”
(uber profound)
Category Archives: CalArts (California Institute of the Arts)
all of the music I play is repetitive
is there ANY music that I actually PLAY that IS NOT…
“REPETITIVE AS HELL?”
let’s see
used to play gamelan. check
Reich. check.
Glass. check.
African from not-Ghana. check
African from Ghana. check.
Harmonium on Indian Music. check.
BoorBaar PErcussion Ensemble music. Check.
some other music (Kandam) Check.
hopefully soon some Brazilian music. Check.
is there ANY music that I actually PLAY that IS NOT…
“REPETITIVE AS HELL?”
let’s see
used to play gamelan. check
Reich. check.
Glass. check.
African from not-Ghana. check
African from Ghana. check.
Harmonium on Indian Music. check.
BoorBaar PErcussion Ensemble music. Check.
some other music (Kandam) Check.
hopefully soon some Brazilian music. Check.
is there ANY music that I actually PLAY that IS NOT…
“REPETITIVE AS HELL?”
let’s see
used to play gamelan. check
Reich. check.
Glass. check.
African from not-Ghana. check
African from Ghana. check.
Harmonium on Indian Music. check.
BoorBaar PErcussion Ensemble music. Check.
some other music (Kandam) Check.
hopefully soon some Brazilian music. Check.
is there ANY music that I actually PLAY that IS NOT…
“REPETITIVE AS HELL?”
let’s see
used to play gamelan. check
Reich. check.
Glass. check.
African from not-Ghana. check
African from Ghana. check.
Harmonium on Indian Music. check.
BoorBaar PErcussion Ensemble music. Check.
some other music (Kandam) Check.
hopefully soon some Brazilian music. Check.
is there ANY music that I actually PLAY that IS NOT…
“REPETITIVE AS HELL?”
let’s see
used to play gamelan. check
Reich. check.
Glass. check.
African from not-Ghana. check
African from Ghana. check.
Harmonium on Indian Music. check.
BoorBaar PErcussion Ensemble music. Check.
some other music (Kandam) Check.
hopefully soon some Brazilian music. Check.
is MY high stimulation music right for you
so, as a HYPER dude (an ADHD dude, whatever…)
what RIGHT do I have, to TELL OTHER people who are ADHD, that MY MUSIC OF CHOICE might be right for THEM?
that it might help THEM feel EXTREME JOY and give THEIR some direction as well?
(this is rhetorical)
(I PLAY a lot of said music, I organize groups and rehearse and perform it, not just listening (though listening is the bomb as well.)
I want to maybe do it with YOU TOO, whomever you are, if you are the right person, THE RIGHT MONKEYS….
today it’s this, though I don’t currently have a SAMBA group (and never HAVE had, one of MY own, though I’ve been in others’s a little.)
more of this, more of this, yes.
HIGH STIMULATION MUSIC, mine 1 24 15
There is some music and dance that I REALLY REALLY love to play, and listen to.
it is of SUCH intense joy, that it pretty much is my favorite thing in life.
my PERSONAL TASTE in such matters is pretty much as follows:
(in no particular order of puesto (course)
1. James Brown
2. Wagner, namely The Ring, Der Ring des Nibelungen
3. plenty of West African Dance-Drumming, from Ghana, Guinea, Mali, Ivory Coast, etc.
4. The Planets by Gustav Holst
5. The Rite of Spring by Igor Stravinsky
6. Brazilian Music, particularly Brazilian Jazz
7. and yes, there’s always “Jazz”, yes yes.
8. don’t leave out CERTAIN HARMONIES (I’ll get to which ones)
and
9. STEVE REICH’s Minimalist Music and that of
10.. PHILIP GLASS as well.
African Dance, yes yes yes…. doing that is one of the awesomest things ever… total exhaustion, VERY stimulating, so much so that at the end, you are exhausted… and yet, you would (and do) continue dancing for more hours…
THIS is what I want… THIS is HIGH STIMULATION.
THIS is LIFE.
James Brown once said something along the lines of “I want to give them MORE than they came for, I want to make them (the audience) tired, ’cause THAT’S what they came for!”
Energy Usage.
…
…
…
perhaps I am a Hedonist. (perhaps I should google such terms before I use them, not “completely
certain if I have the right word in mind. (but where’s the fun in that, where’s the fun in that, inDeed…)
ADHD MUSIC.., 1 24 2015
ADHD be a touchy subject for me, yes.
I just searched “ADHD MUSIC” without quotes.
what I seem to find (I haven’t found out for sure yet (see above)
are presumably
websites that have music that apparently
HELP
(sigh… grumble…seeth…..grrrrr)
HELP with ADHD…
I can only assume that that means that said music HELPS people with ADHD
(grrrrrrrr)
FUNCTION BETTER, or MORE NORMALLY (seething more….grrr)
in NORMAL SOCIETY, by
(fists clenched….. voice angry)
… by helping them be more normal, like everyone else…..
@($*%*#(%_#!!
!
needless to say… MY adhd music page is not about this, not in the same way at least (all presumption, I haven’t clicked on any of these sites; it’s 2:41 am and this is a touchy touchy subject, and I don’t wanna chance gettin all emotional and angry and resentful and vengeful (my life, my feelings) this late.
AS I was saying…
MY ADHD MUSIC pages (and my LIFE)
are not about helping us FUNCTION amongst figurative “mere mortals,” (that can mean anything from “Normal People” to “Non-ADHD people” to “Non-Artists”) at least, not in the same way, not by “denying” our impulses and need for “enough stimulation, by OUR measure, not be “normal people’s” but
by GETTING enough of said stimulation, whatever it is. (my life, after all.)
if I want to use ten times as much pepper on my eggs as most people do (as my best friend DOES IN FACT DO,) I fucking will.
TASTE.
if I were gay, I’d be gay. it is for no one to TELL ME I should have different TASTES or crave DIFFERENT AMOUNTS different ways different ANYTHINGS than I do.
and if I want to play African Music from Ghana for 4 or 5 hours until I can barely stand because it is a HELL of a good time (as I did last night), until I am exhausted and need to drink a lotta water and then coffee to drive all the way home, if THIS is what makes me HAPPY, then it BLOODY WELL IS!!!
JOY! and get outta my face if you think a “proper” night is spent reading or watching tv or sports or drinking or being with a loved one (not that I don’t enjoy that too.)
MY ADHD RESOURSE CENTER, (that might be a little formal for my tastes (sure as hell is)
is about THIS, not THAT.
THAT is fitting in, self-denial (I didn’t read no Neiztsche, no I didn’t)
THIS is BEING OURSELVES.
and feel free to criticize me as incredibly infantile and juvenile, that’s your prerogative indeed.
Become Awesomeness
Become Excitement
Become Interaction
Become Engagement
BECOME ENERGY USAGE, FLOW, MOVEMENT.
BECOME IT SO MUCH YOU ARE EXHAUSTED.
“THIS” is life. (at least sometimes.)
don’t worry. there is compromise involved in life.
we’ll get to that.
first we start from this place. this place right here.
p.s. this post may seem a little extreme, yes it may. everything’s fine, just strong words and strong feelings is all, folks. everything’s fine. 
doing things for oneself or others
… Whether things are done for one’s own comfort/likes/tastes,
or for Other’s PERCEIVED comfort/likes/tastes, (as if that is even possible to know,) let alone their ACTUAL comfort/likes/tastes…
really is a BIG. QUESTION.
, now, isn’t it. (to me.)
and by extension, others doing things for “your” perceived comfort/likes/tastes… how can they know what your ACTUAL comforts likes and tastes are…
… psst. this isn’t actually a question at all, it is
my implication
that you should not in fact adhere to GENERIC social norms which, being generic, have possibly not all much in common with what other people ACTUALLY want.
and that you SHOULD to things according to YOUR likes and tastes and comforts.
just a thought, possibly a very big one.
I wonder what this has to do with being an artist. or being crazy. or awesome. or honest. or an individual. or all of these. not none. shoutout Raffi.
and yes, this is the way I think things should be.
I wonder also what this has to do with my feeling that being weird was not okay, as a child, as I as seem to have allowed my life to become a vengeful rebellion against the labelers, those who labeled me, while they are off living their lives (happily or otherwise…) I am here rebelling forever.
but alas, in the words of Yoda, “Decide “I” must, how to serve myself best…”
it is for no other to tell me, as it isn’t for anyone tell the main character from The Hurt Locker
that he should be happy at home with wife and kid, and not in Iraq in the adrenaline of battle, to be happy.
exercise in The Backwards-Bizzaro Theory
never let the tastes and opinions of “others” allow them nor cause you to label yourself as odd, or extreme. maybe they are the ones who are odd, extreme, or perhaps even boring and uninteresting, to you, instead:)
#backwardsbizzarotheory
Perfection of the Good Kind…
when it comes to music (as opposed to “the self,”)
PerFection is
NOT. OPTIONAL.
😉
(((this requires explanation. I’ll get to it.)))
The BEST Advice-
I have four people in mind, who, if I ask their opinion, I am feeling either sure, or am “pretending I am sure for defensive purposes” that
if I look out to them (instead of myself and experience and self-forgiveness and failure and learning and growth, not to MENTION “TRYING MORE THAN ONLY ONCE!!!”)
ahem, if I look out to them, asking them for advice on how to be as successful as THEY are,
that they will pretty much give some version of:
1. you can’t be as as successful as me,
2. especially with YOUR approach
3. you should stick to “these little smaller things instead, or
4. you shouldn’t want what I have/, what I seek, or
5. if you really do want it, you should go about it in a way that makes sense to me, not to you.
that is, to THEM, instead of ME.
however…
listening to
myself
experience
forgiving myself
failure
learning
growth, and needless to say,
TRYING MORE THAN ONLY ONCE (thank you, LUCKY MOSKO for encouraing me to do that very thing)
might be a better Idea, alas.
(is no advice, (other than to follow yourSELF, long enough)
status quo/unknown art/CalArts-Strong
something tells me that when you do something that is already approved of/known by the status quo, that it can become popular right quick.
that’s probably definitely certainly
less true for something unusual and unknown…
but let’s be CalArts-Strong about it shall we?