there are several reasons but ONE of them is
when people TALK and ACT like professionals, and yet, in truth, they turn out to be full of shit, and a shit-ton less competent than me, who despises talking and acting professional.
I was deeply offput, (sp!) more than once, when I saw some percussionist long ago, many many years, who presented themselves like that, and as principle percussion of so and so symphony (a tiny tiny one in a tiny tiny town, it turns out.)
I was frankly “offended” by them, and the musical director, when they allowed this person to play the same pieces I had played, and they played them way less well than I did.
I was more offended that they presented themselves in this way when they were not deserving of it.
a clear elevation of presentation and image over substance.
I say again
a clear elevation of presentation and image over substance.
UN-ACCEPTABLE!!!!!!!!!
I wonder how much of “the root” of my revulsion against normalcy, presentation, image, and professionalism, this particular incident played.
(it can’t have been all that much, the roots of those things in me go back to the 70s.)
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hmmm…
So I’ve got a New Plan and The Gershwin-Schoenberg Argument
ok so I’ve got a new plan, 11 24 2014
1. I will do the “big project-related” thing FIRST thing in the morning.
2. I will not waste time on facebook or other “highly addictive and low-yield stimulations (I didn’t say porn), by using the APP “Self Control” (it’s really an application. http://selfcontrolapp.com
3. I will “carry over” the energy of being warmed up, with a BIG project that helps me FOCUS, into the things I NEED to do, smaller, responsibility type things.
and, the entire time, I will bear in mind that
I need to do things MY way, and only need to take advice from others on how THEY would do things
AFTER I have done them my way and failed so bloody much that it only makes sense to ask others, not the reverse as is usually the case.
lets do it.
p.s. the skull and crossbones really is the icon for that app, it’s not illegit, I use it often.
p.p.s this is because I’m ADD, or ADHD, and without something that I “actually care about”, I am kinda highly dysfunctional, and an emotional mess, and all my energies go towards self-blame and trying to act like other people (which I am terrible at) and the whole enterprise is very wasteful, instead of just BEING myself and using MY skills.
Gershwin of George fame once, supposedly, sought composition lessons from no less than Arnold Schoenberg.
reportedly, Schoenberg declined, saying something akin to
“but if I gave you composition lessons, you’d just become a bad Schoenberg; you’re already sich a great Gerswhin!”
I call this
“The Gershwin-Scheonberg Argument,” it being an argument for being oneself and using one’s own strengths, rather than shamefully squandering them.