Music Thoughts
just saw a blog containing the words “SPLINTERED MIND” (ADHD-related) in the title.
my thoughts:
(an exercise of The Backwards-Bizzaro-Theory)
Our Adhd mind is only “splintered” if you consider the non-adhd mind NORMAL, WHOLE.
Maybe our mind is normal, whole, and yours is one track, low-energy.
yes sir, on the way to achieving balance, I’m all about inverting/reversing norms all the way.
no need to hurry, I’ll get to balance some day, if I am meant to.
wow, I really do “love” coffee and James Brown on repeat…
on-going thoughts of -whatever-
when do I owe it to people to try to MAKE THEM COMFORTABLE… I mean, SERIOUSLY, let’s think about this-
how can you KNOW that “the status quo SOCIAL “NORMSSSSSS”
REALLY ACTUALLY make people comfortable?”
isn’t it JUST as likely (with MY kind of people it is)
that
they too
think that said social niceties are kinda stupid
and that they will be HAPPIER, THANKFUL, if you just cut through and get to ACTUAL SUBSTANCE, you know,
things that
MATTER?
I certainly think so.
BOOyah!
James Brown Make Happy.
this is an ongoing experience of mine, thinking about this. and life.
and now: actual thoughts. (if impatient, skip the first 11 lines)
topic today: creative matters.
I am concerned about which aspects of my life to try to control, and which not.
I am concerned that I always want to do things in a (typically non-conformist) “creative/artistic” way, rather than “that other way” that most people, even creatives, even artists, use.
and now for specifics:
I don’t like to BOTHER unless I’m going ALL IN, or at least, “very far in, intensely.” (this is not sexual.)
(skip to here) the way I see it,
you have to do a lot of infrastructural work just to set something up, to make it work. (which is generally a pain in the butt.)
if you are going to do that,
I think it is best to then maximize the situation and do as much as possible as extreme as possible with the “situation” you have set up, and then have to tear down.
OTHERWISE, it’s like
1. going to a gas station.
2. getting out of the car
3. paying for the gas.”
4. ONLY GETTING FIFTY CENTS WORTH.”
5. yadda yadda.
and having to do it again soon.
50 cents of gas ain’t no fun.
a full tank is.
proverbially of course.
unless you are being paid a ton of money, getting all dressed up to perform for 30 seconds
instead of for 2 hours
just ain’t it.
(I never said this approach was practical.)
I’m so out of it I just heard a QUEEN song and for a full ten seconds thought it was THE BEETLES.
I should probably be checked for roaches
you know, I might be “weird” like that, BUT-
when the harmony of a tune is awesome, I will also like the beat of the tune, maybe, simple as it may be.
that’s not at all the case if I don’t like the harmony.
I suppose this is kinda like, liking something about a person, and through that, learning about other things about them that you wouldn’t have cared about otherwise (and that you might indeed not care about in other cases.)
blah blah… the love affair with music continues.
certain harmonies and rhythmic feels just GET ME, man. like that. I can hear such things like they are an addictive drug nonstop for hours.
they aren’t though. which is cool, cause, drugs are bad, but music is good:)
which reminds me of my “curious” reading of the end of The Hurt Locker.
such as this song right here, for some reason (it’s in C Dorian. that’s the reason I think. c d eb f g A NATURAL Bb…. yeah yeah yeah yes yes)
WOO!, WOW… go from feeling over-analyzing,
then
listen to some FREDDIE FREELOADER (both the original and the the jon hendricks INSANE vocal version (seriously, they took all the solos by Miles, Coltrane, Canonball and the rest and made up words to em, insane)
and POOF!
feel great, happy. if only I was a (censored!) jazz singer. no, no no. z
…
AND WHAT DOES IT MEAN TO BE A CENSORED JAZZ SINGER?
say, that’s a good name for a band, or a song… no, definitely a band. I call dibs.
especially a punk band…
the topic “feeling fundamentally flawed and somehow Unlovable”
is of interest to me, in the ways that it manifests in me, and in others.
of course no one is really either of those things, but some people unfortunately live as if they are.
gotta… not do that:)
an email from CALARTS ASKING ME FOR MONEY!!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!
things to say:
1. I went to CalArts.
2. it is the coolest place on earth; I love it, with an L.
3. I love music and art and dance stuffs, and they are awesome.
4. I don’t make much money (though I know that music and art and dance are “there very own wonder and that is good enough.