Steve Reich minimalist music related stuffs
yeah…. ‘steada depending on others to provide YOUR opportunities for stimulation (and money,) not to mention livelihood, that is, adhd-high-stimulation,
do it your fuckin self.
why have I so often just opted to find something that’s awesome enough, and just BE part of it, rather than MAKING one myself….
given, I haven’t done this when there IS no “thing” in a given area, I HAVE gone and made my own in said cases.
perhaps I should ALWAYS do this.
self-helping inDEed
ALWAYS thinking about tomorrow (“all his life, as he looked away to the future”)
always thinking that some day, after right now, (“to the horizon”)
after right now, some OTHER day, things will be ideal, better, great, good
(“NEVER – his mind on -“)
there is no tomorrow, there is only right now
“WHERE HE WAS!… HM?! WHAT he was DOING!… Hm.”)
stop thinking that, stop preparing for that.
prepare for right now.
I almost feel sorry for people who can’t be in the moment enough to totally love playing and listening to wonderful (Brazilian in this case) music so much that it is life, pure joy, right now, never before, never after, always now.
ain’t necessarily an endorphins thing, though they seem to do this sometimes also.
just an in the moment thing.
and a love harmony and rhythm (or melody) thing.
Guess I’m just lucky, and man life would suck if this wasn’t enough.
me blessed.
yay music.
trying to control WHAT others appreciate about you is one thing.
but believing that you don’t deserve appreciation simply for normal human qualities is QUITE another, particularly if it causes to try to control what others appreciate about you.
it might even lead you to not present yourself for a great many experiences, because you think that all you have to offer is being abnormal, extreme, crazy, weird, special, different. (it’s not like people didn’t make me feel guilty for being normal as a child, nor appreciate me only when I was special and different (they did, and they did, nor is it like many of my interests genuinely were and ARE in things that are less common and normal than some.)
…
the soundtrack to the Wachowski (formerly brothers) film
JUPITER ASCENDING.
I kinda like.
it’s amusing and amazing to me that I, a weirdo of harmonic tastes, can appreciate a simple
f minor to DbM major progression, repeated.
then again, Steve Reich uses exactly that progression (in music for a large ensemble, even in the same exact key)
in TONS of his pieces.
JAM
James Brown is God.
CALARTS I LOVE YA!
that is all.
if I wasn’t at a concert at the LA Phil…
I would be pissed that people were uncouth (wow, just wow, it’s not like me to use that word in it’s ACTUAL meaning) and that they weren’t interested in what I am.
yet, when I AM at such a place… a COMPLEX LITANY of STRONG emotions emerges.
everything from
resentment that other people are not as serious as me,
that other people are enjoying the work in a different way than I (call me a narcissist, CALL ME one!)
that
people bother to get “SUPER” dressed up, with “OTHER PEOPLE” who are super dressed up, and they do it as a SOCIAL OCCASION.
FUCK that!!! UMPH!
to irritation at the kinda formal generic lingo that the artists and presenters (ughhhh) use
to jealousy professional and otherwise, to
to wishing it was me instead of them,
to imagined resentment that the artists, were I to meet them, WOULDN’t be AS CRAZY as I, in MY way, (maybe they would, I’d love that… I could marry that…, or at least have sex with it…)
…yeah, it’s mostly at the audience, and the PRESENTATION.
HATE that formal SHIT.
but DO be serious, DO be serious. that’s not the same as formal, mind you.
…
in other words, I’m your normal sensitive crazy artist.
if I’m not proverbially warmed up (Highly Stimulated, I mean)
I can’t really do much, other than attempt to become so.
like when you are hungry, or sleepy, the best thing to do is eat and sleep.
I bear this in mind.
I must bear this in mind.
it’s pretty hard to be motivated, to get moving with something, if you are simply cold and your proverbial engine has no umph or anything yet….
you must use “something” that DOES get you going…
drumming in a non lame way with people who are extreme does this, as do some other things, mostly physical…
perhaps this is why people exercise first thing?
but alas, Pilates in the morning doesn’t really do it…
something, something ELSE may… CARDIO…. a cool kind…
the kind that HOTTENS. …
African Dance in the Morning, perhaps.
this perhaps is why ROBERT WILSON (he made Einstein on the Beach) taught MOVEMENT THERAPY for Hyperactive Children, after which they COULD concentrate better on “mundane” things.
THIS is the way!
how long have we (I) known this and yet I still fail most of the time to achieve it? I am addicted to LOW GRADE STIMULATION. DOWN WITH FACEBOOK!