1. (omitted cause it’s a long story)
2. not taking the chance to do something that’s High Stimulation, because you are too dehydrated/exhausted/hungry.
really mars what should be a wonderful time and memory.
hate missed opportunities.
but here’s the challenge in “just moving on.”
they aren’t all equal.
not in any sense.
the next chance to feel THAT good THAT way won’t be for a year, if that, if ever.
moving on to the next thing won’t feel anywhere near as good as that.
…there are so very many things I do not do.
but perhaps it is not because I feel unworthy, or lacking in know-how, but because I simply do not want them.
part of a series on what I currently call
“The Four Challenges” (this dealing with Challenge #1 (which is third in order, more on that later.)
1. didn’t really understand a lot of normalcy as a child.
2. still doesn’t.
3. wouldn’t and doesn’t choose said normalcy when given the choice.
4. didn’t and doesn’t feel the system was designed with him in mind.
5. doesn’t feel obligated in any way to present, TO ANYONE, ANY kind of AIR or APPEARANCE OF NORMALCY.
somehow tonight while playing music with some friends I managed to find myself playing
7 notes to the dotted quarter note, in 5/4.
meaning, when the guy playing in 5/4 (it was actually 5/16 (4 bars) against quarter notes (five of them of course)
meaning I played 14 notes every three quarter notes, so
YEAH, when the guy playing in 5/4 had played 3 bars, 15 quarter notes, 60 16th notes…
I had played 70 notes in the same space.
SIX AGAINST SEVEN, i.e, 3 against 3 and a half
WTF