it isn’t about being visible and noticed by other people, the mob. first it’s about BEING.
there “appear” to be some things I simply haven’t done enough to KNOW< or UNDERSTAND WHY or THAT I would enjoy them, what they have to offer… which means I must just settle down to doing them, several times, possibly a ton of times, BEFORE I judge that I hate them…
perhaps some day, I can truly know I am not interested…
but first,
it seems…
I’ll need to um, give them more of a chance…
I’m a teenage boy still, in other words.
but let’s not self-judge,
growing up, heh, no need to judge, it’s life, we live it. everythings ok.
let’s keep living.
oh MAN, yes….
one thing, that’s “SO” true….
about my creative artist and crazy and CalArts friends…
such people…
NEVER
belittle you, mock you, tease you, or otherwise judge your or put you down, because of WHO YOU ARE, your tastes, interests, or ways of expressing yourself.
they (we) may do it over creAtive matters, but that’s entirely different. (person A likes this, person B likes that, and it’s all okay.)
such people NEVER do it in the juvenile, “jock” immature insecure ways that average people (ahem, mostly men) do. (sorry ladies, but I’m not as familiar with how women “tend” to do this.)
and this, friends…
is VERY nice, very nice indeed, nothing but wonderful.
this is the good way.
me happy.
#CalArtsLove
things that bring you into the moment, such as eve Pilates, not just yoga and such…
out of one’s head, perhaps.
after doing pilates, assuming I manage to get on with my day (often I don’t)
life seems real nice, for some reason.
and the thought of the day shall be—|
“Perhaps I am happy, already.”
there being no “there” there, indeed.
remind me to start making REAL green smoothies again soon, and to stop drinking these (kinda awful) green Naked Juices (coca cola owns them.)
if I drink the REAL ones, perhaps, like two years ago, for two years, I WON’T get sick AT ALL for two years, like happened when I actually drank them:)
if you don’t like/love yourself,
you won’t LET others like you (love as well) and
if they get to close, you’ll actively do things to PUSH them away, sabotage.
seems to be a “reflective” in and out type of situation.
so, like yourself. then you’ll allow others to.
I like myself.
I like myself.
You deserve to be loved
first and foremost by Yourself.
never surround yourself with others who revile you.
it’s kinda like relationships or marriage.
there are people who really love you and WANT you.
others may accept you, others revile you.
why would you choose any but the first?
-the answers to WHY I haven’t and am not “doing” much more with my life are not profound, they are SIMPLY
out of habit, and
too disconnected from other people doing similar things, to energetically leach off of; that is, benefit from by mutual doing.
let’s get together and do good ideas, people.