sigh, I wonder what other people are asking for…. I wonder what I could be asking for…. that I’m not….

now it is a depressing night, yes.

blkahblah, you should ask for things, or you won’t get them (from whomever, the universe, whatever)
when other people get them, I guess they asked, or whatever, who knows.

wonder if I believe I’ll get or have nothing, and wonder if I do in fact have nothing, and wonder if I am somehow causing it to happen, not happen, to me. blah blah