I will say its strange being an introvert who is also ADHD and creative and such.
it seems sorta like Robin Williams, where he was doing all these antics, yet seemed very afraid, to be himself, underneath.
I sorta feel similar, somewhat… (but “some” of my ‘antics’ ARE from “down there”, some of them ARE “real”, they just have all this “stuff” “BUILT” “on” them, but their bases, they ARE from deep down, even if some of the degrees to which they have been extended have moved far beyond where they “really” come from, what they “REALLY” are.
I mean, I AM adhd, I AM creative… I DO love music, etc.
it’s not an act, even if we have tried to make “everything” conform to/be based on- it.
it feels like I am sorta afraid of intimacy, without my music and antics and hyper self, particularly the “extended” versions of it/me.
this is all okay, though.
wow, ….
….
….
….
so
wistful
and
dreamy, this music makes me feel.
no longer sad, just…. peace-
ful.
(track 11, From Now On)
http://sonanaut.bandcamp.com