… I am all of a sudden not looking forward to any more Star Wars movies. why?
I just heard the um, montage music from a few of the star wars movies (the sequence at the end, increasingly long in each movie, that sorta musically wraps up the whole thing. Very simply in the first movie, quite detailed in the 6th…)
you know, the wistful romantic sequence (and music) from the end of Empire, when Lando and Chewie depart to rescue Han, and the others look on, and it’s just, like, beautiful…
the Anakin’s Funeral sequence from Jedi,
etc. Then I heard that from the Phantom Menace (a movie I do not in fact hate at all.)
it was far more complex in this movie (as well as the other two prequels.)
Yoda is speaking to Obi-wan, about training young Anakin, saying, to dark unsettling music (first chronological occurance of The Imperial MArch (which is kinda also darth vader’s theme)
“Grave danger I fear in his training…”
the emotional chords struck by that, because I know and care about the characters (and their leitmotifs)…
I doubt any new characters can match that.
the story’s already been told.
I doubt that the new stuff will resonate.
hopefully I’m wrong.
Tagged #Wagner because, hey, it’s about Leitmotifs.
so many years…. so little has changed, though I guess some things have, and are, and some day we’ll all die, yes…
hows that for a grave opening.
boy, 30 hours have gone buy, I only slept 6 (not 8) of them…
boy, it really does hurt when I am reminded that life seems indeed to have some wonderful things to offer, things that other people have been doing forever,
things that I am simply not engaged in nor trying to learn.
things I will have to engage in and learn, if they are to happen.
not because I am a coward, no,
but simply because I am terrified and always have been.
I know… I know….
….
just learn them, baby steps.
why didn’t I do this the last 5, 10, 15, 20 years…
(I know why…)
the second best time to plant a tree…
…
it’s humiliating to be beginner at something that most people already know.
Yeah I’m great at this and that, yeah yeah.
sigh when if ever will I just do the work and …
I hate people, they’re so scary.
I can’t defend myself from them with music.
that just leads to music.
I love music.
but it’s not enough.
… why the FUCK…
should I make people comfortable?
what the fuck are they doing to make ME comfortable?
not much.
they mediate with generic normalness, (ugh)
which can lead
1. people who are actually cool to behaving as if they are NOT,
2. people who are NOT cool to pretending (and failing in said endeavor) that they ARE (laughable and embarrassing, from my point of view, for them)
no, fuck that.
people should
BE HONEST and BE THEMSELVES
and congregate with those with TRULY THE RIGHT CHEMISTRY, fuck all this ass kissing.
THIS is what makes sense to ME, not them “average people’s social norms.”
call me primitive, go ahead. fuck you.
na, but come the fuck on, just tell the truth, don’t play games and mislead people. be you me, we might love it.
tagged politics cause politicians should do this, and have principles.
changing the pre-planned order of a song, in live performance, keeps things lively but also keeps them (the band) rather nervous.”
so said DON ELLIS, (paraphrased here.)
“but also keeps them rather nervous.”
a new piece I am playing does exactly that.
I am feeling that more music should, it’s just too fun.
in one gig of this piece (2nd ever, I think)
there were some sexy dancers dancing along with us, and in THIS tune, I HAD to “not look at them”, lest I miss a cue and louse it up
Tagged AFRICAN because this technique sorta comes from African (West) Drumming.
I awoke at 8:20 am today… for some reason, left home real early to work on stuff… HOURS earlier than I usually put my mind to anything important than isn’t being RUN by OTHER PEOPLE (in the morning, and early afternoon, that is.)
suddenly, even though I drank coffee 3 HOURS ago, now, that it’s 3pm, BOOOOM!!!!
I”VE GOT TONS OF ENERGY!!! WHAT THE HELL! (happy, just funny)
Brazilian Music (a song called MAGIA by BANDA BLACK RIO) is responsible as well.
I guess you shouldn’t put up walls between yourself and others, even if it was other people in your childhood who put them up, forcibly, and you just accepted them because you thought they were real (indeed, they kinda were,) (the matrix again)
you shouldn’t minimize yourself in such a way, for example:
“so and so (a woman who is sexually attractive) wouldn’t date me because she has dated “this guy” or “that guy” and I’m nothing like those guys.
I bet- after many years of empy loneliness oh god,
that that simply ain’t true. I must have what women want.
yes that.
geez this makes me nervous hahahaaaa
people always taught me that I MISSED, as in DIDN’T NOTICE or UNDERSTAND “NORMAL SOCIAL CUES.”
but why should anyone AGREE with the Cursed things ANYHOW?
they don’t SUIT me. so FUCk em!
MAYBE the damn things just didn’t make SENSE to me, and MAYBE it WASN’T ME that was the issue, maybe it’s the damn social cues, maybe they are are just KINDA STUPID.
man, sometimes “actually playing in time” and “actually getting a good sound, not a sloppy (dirty in the drumline sense) sound is hard…
doing so on your thighs with your hands seems easy enough, but god damn, suddenly on actual drums, you suck.
#practice, hahaha who would think.
as you reach out and try to collaborate, with anyone for any purpose,
know this, particularly if you are more unique than other individuals:
you might not and probably will not get along well with almost EVERYONE. I mean seriously, would you marry ANYONE? I doubt it.
I’ve had some lousy therapists, I have a good one “who happens to work well with me” now. (happens, not because they are good or bad, nor me, (that’s important!) but just because of CHEMISTRY, so to speak…
for gods SAKE people (or, whomever’s)
DO NOT blame YOURSELF on CHEMISTRY!!!!
it has occurred to me once again that a lot of people simply can’t very easily hear, say, the Root, Third, and Fifth (and other notes) of a Triad, when listening to chords, in a row, etc…
pity them, it’s really beautiful and stimulating. who needs money or sex, I got this;)
