it’d be very nice to have a platform from which to launch and do my ideas. namely a manager and agent, but ones who help realize MY stuff, not others’s. unless it’s the same:)
anybody got one? such a thing, I mean, got such a thing?
(I really seriously need help with this folks, I’m wasting, some day it will be too late.)
Monthly Archives: August 2015
chords with Eb from V for Vendetta
I taught this at A.C.E. one summer, after randomly noticing it while planning class one morning (5 hours before the class, while driving to another class elsewhere to teach first)
Eb or D#, in all chords:
-G Aug (G B D#)
-F7 (dominant 7, for you classicals, F A C Eb)
-ebm (Eb Gb Bb)
-BM (B D# F#)
-F7
-cm (C Eb G)
-f#m Add 6th (F# A C# D#)
from REMEMBER REMEMBER from V for Vendetta, Dario Marinelli. perhaps anyone could have written it. so what. still cool. I mean, the chords, they don’t seem obviously (perhaps I’m wrong) built on movement by 5ths or 4ths… just containing Eb.
my god I’m short-sighted
my god I’m short-sighted, though it’s understandable why.
perhaps it’s time to expect more from life.
politics today is insane
I hope young people realize that politics is INSANE (and very very very rude and classless) today. people weren’t always such jerks.
this is the life
man, god DAMN there’s nothing better than doing awesome things over and over and over!
proverbial EDGING (look it up)
hearing or playing “already extremely repetitive music” over and over for hours.
be as good as fucking coolly or hotly that long. or driving and hearing music…. or any shit… dancin, exercising…. fuck yeah this is life.
I taught a Super Awesome Class on Wagner
I taught a Super Awesome Class on Wagner, the Leitmotifs of The Ring, to rather young people two years ago. fuckin loved it. it’s amazing that a place let me
desire to teach the sublime subtle amazingness that is the Composite Leitmotif of THE NEED OF THE GODS…. (composite because it is made up of several other Leitmotifs),
to REVERSE-ENGINEER everything that newbies (to Wagner) would need to even attempt to gain an understanding of WHY it is amazing, what the dramatic symbols are, what they meant in their original contexts, and how they evolved into THIS, and WHY it’s just so Moving….
don’t let your hate get the better of you.
don’t let your hate get the better of you. like in that Star Trek TNG episode, SKIN OF EVIL.
let it go, or you shall become it, Darth-Vader style.
so, relationships….
might seem strange to say this…. but a lot of people seem to have relationships.
my therapist today said that plenty of these people (and relationships) are not in fact happy ones, indeed.
it has occurred to me, the unhappy ones and “just because this is what everyone does and so I guess I should do it too” ones not withstanding-
so I guess these people must ENJOY doing this then, huh…
so I’d better start
NOT using other people as ways to make MYSELF feel better about myself (instead of just loving myself just because, first,) and
um,
doing whatever it is that people do together that they seem to enjoy, WHICH-
being Adhd, and already having a lotta things that are super fun to do, and already doing plenty of them, …
sometimes I have a hard time imagining (aside from Sex of course)
things to do with a partner that would compare with the stuff I already do, ya know, drumming, listening to music, and other stimulating things.
I mean, yeah, people be together, yeah…. just….
sometimes it’s tough for me to imagine feeling good or relaxed, or stimulated, or interested at all, when something involves spending “as much” time with another person as a relationship seems like it’d involve.
I am a loner, after all.
we shall see, I guess.
(I tagged all this music stuff in this because said music stuff is a lotta the stuff I enjoy, and don’t need to be in a relationship to love deeply, for it to make me truly happy…. sharing it with another might be okay, but seriously, it’s already great without em…. I don’t need style crampage…) but yeah, some affection might be nice.
normal???
somehow (and I know how) because of my childhood and feelings and such, there are some “fairly normal human behaviors” that I regard as otherwise.
I’ve really gotta…. accept that it’s really okay if I engage in these behaviors. avoiding them… hasn’t really made me happy.
though doing other behaviors has… I can be happier, and happier is better than happy. still, happy at all is better than not happy at all.
#whatsnormal
the fast-track to growing up LAST.
man in spite of my age I am on the fast-track to growing up LAST.
but then, that’s comparing myself unfavorably to others, and it is also giving importance to certain “norms” of behavior…
so what if others do things sooner in life than me(even my younger crazy artist friends,) so what indeed.
they haven’t done what I HAVE.
no one gets to say that the NORMS are more meaningful/important than the things I HAVE DONE.
so there.