not feeling worthy of something is one thing,
not knowing how to go about it, (due in part to years spent not feeling worthy of it)
is quite another.
whereas not WANTING something, unless it’s done YOUR WAY, versus “everyone else’s”, is QUITE another yet, and of course-
simply not getting around to it, or anything,
is indeed another.
These are THE FOUR CHALLENGES. 3, 2, 1, and 0, in that order.