Thought of the day, 1 21 2015
I don’t need help doing things, I need help believing that I deserve TO do them. big difference.
Category Archives: ADHD Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder
ADHD is awesome, mostly.
encouragement, not advice
the thing is… so very often, almost always…. I wouldn’t THINK of “ASKING” for a lot, for myself. dreams for me don’t even OCCUR to me, thanks to the bad habit of um, believing that one is unlovable and invalid (in spite of how so many people do in fact treat me, yes.)
on so many occasions all along… when I’ve reached out for “advice”, and gotten “exactly the wrong kind of advice said exactly the wrong way (it has left me so discouraged that I’m crying, on more than a few occasions, honestly)
when I reached out for “advice…” what I really wanted was mere
encouragement, encouragement that I AM good enough, to TRY, that’s all,
not HOW to do it, (though unfortunately that may have been exactly what I asked…)
but in truth, I think what I meant, and still mean, is
that I merely seek encouragement TO go for it…
(I know the answer, by the way).
(it’s “yes, go for it, even though “any excuse at all.” still go for it.”)
Perfection of the Good Kind…
when it comes to music (as opposed to “the self,”)
PerFection is
NOT. OPTIONAL.
😉
(((this requires explanation. I’ll get to it.)))
The BEST Advice-
I have four people in mind, who, if I ask their opinion, I am feeling either sure, or am “pretending I am sure for defensive purposes” that
if I look out to them (instead of myself and experience and self-forgiveness and failure and learning and growth, not to MENTION “TRYING MORE THAN ONLY ONCE!!!”)
ahem, if I look out to them, asking them for advice on how to be as successful as THEY are,
that they will pretty much give some version of:
1. you can’t be as as successful as me,
2. especially with YOUR approach
3. you should stick to “these little smaller things instead, or
4. you shouldn’t want what I have/, what I seek, or
5. if you really do want it, you should go about it in a way that makes sense to me, not to you.
that is, to THEM, instead of ME.
however…
listening to
myself
experience
forgiving myself
failure
learning
growth, and needless to say,
TRYING MORE THAN ONLY ONCE (thank you, LUCKY MOSKO for encouraing me to do that very thing)
might be a better Idea, alas.
(is no advice, (other than to follow yourSELF, long enough)
status quo/unknown art/CalArts-Strong
something tells me that when you do something that is already approved of/known by the status quo, that it can become popular right quick.
that’s probably definitely certainly
less true for something unusual and unknown…
but let’s be CalArts-Strong about it shall we?
I love rehearsing and playing Meine Music
I love rehearsing and playing music I like/love. but never in the “let’s get it over with” way; ALWAYS in the “we love this there isn’t anything we’d WANT to do!”-way!
(I really don’t understand musicians who don’t feel that way, but, lucky me.)
my mind is not splintered
just saw a blog containing the words “SPLINTERED MIND” (ADHD-related) in the title.
my thoughts:
(an exercise of The Backwards-Bizzaro-Theory)
Our Adhd mind is only “splintered” if you consider the non-adhd mind NORMAL, WHOLE.
Maybe our mind is normal, whole, and yours is one track, low-energy.
yes sir, on the way to achieving balance, I’m all about inverting/reversing norms all the way.
no need to hurry, I’ll get to balance some day, if I am meant to.
Coffee and James Brown on repeat…
wow, I really do “love” coffee and James Brown on repeat…
BE YOURSELF. MANY MANY TIMES.
note to self…
you KNOW what “normal people” are gonna say about your ways of doing things, so why bother asking.
they’re gonna disapprove (maybe) and tell you you should be more normal, or more like THEM and less like YOU.
poing(poing? point) being:
if you haven’t already gone all the way with BEING YOURSELF,
then don’t bother asking others for advice on how to be them instead of how to be you- just go through with being you.
you probably are lacking confidence, you probably are assuming that you should get the same results as others, you probably are comparing yourself to them.
unless you have a TON of experience, screw all that.
go back to being yourself, and stick with it, and not with a disempowered impoverished, “if I fail one time, I give up” version of yourself, but a Strong, Courageous, TO THE HILT version. MANY TIMES.
if THAT STILL fails, only THEN think about a new plan.
until then…. stick with plan A, that is,
BE YOURSELF.
making people comfortable/uncomfortable
on-going thoughts of -whatever-
when do I owe it to people to try to MAKE THEM COMFORTABLE… I mean, SERIOUSLY, let’s think about this-
how can you KNOW that “the status quo SOCIAL “NORMSSSSSS”
REALLY ACTUALLY make people comfortable?”
isn’t it JUST as likely (with MY kind of people it is)
that
they too
think that said social niceties are kinda stupid
and that they will be HAPPIER, THANKFUL, if you just cut through and get to ACTUAL SUBSTANCE, you know,
things that
MATTER?
I certainly think so.
BOOyah!
James Brown Make Happy.
this is an ongoing experience of mine, thinking about this. and life.