philosophy
TOMBO by AIRTO MOREIRA
THIS be some of the kind of music that is INCESSANT, UNRELENTING and AWESOME TO LISTEN TO AND PERFORM AND DANCE TO ALWAYS
(if the very beginning is “too slow for you”, go farther ahead, thou shalt not be disappointed.
though the beginning is FUNKY and PHAT, OH YES!
I could seriously hear this all day
you too? 
seems it is never to late
to decide you like yourself
you love yourself
that you DO have things to offer
that you ARE valid,
that you ARE lovable.
I mean, you’ve spent your whole life “not asking” for things you would if you DID believe these things,
why not change and behave this better way instead?
I can indeed think of no reason:)
(my therapist taught me this. I did too, it would seem.)
she is very good. so am I.
funny story (funny may be the wrong word.)
in 2005 or therabouts at the Macy’s in Valencia CA (near CalArts of course, on a thursday even after African Ensemble.)
I was there and heard this song, with it’s TWO chord repeating… honestly, even just NOW, in 2015, I had to THINK for ten second about which chords they were…
they are G minor 7, a Bb minor 7, that’s all… but the bass line, it’s plays C and G, over the G, and then Eb and Bb over the Bb…. (a TAD confusing from a certain point of view… anyway)
I heard it, repeating, and was UTTERLY MESMERISED, somehow, in spite of the “cheezy” nature of the rest of the song, ( I mean, it’s sorta commercial, is all, I don’t mind though; harmony that I like, even as simple as gm7 and Bbm7…. is enough to enthrall me.
I stood there, under the speaker, STRAINING to figure a few of the lyrics…. all I got was golden something…. rays, lay, something….
I was desperately obsessed, HAD to have that song… didn’t even know what it was… and I knew, from prior experience, that big box stores don’t have the ability to “tell you what song that is” (starbucks and coffeebean TOTALLY do…:))
that night, I went on line, searched high and low, and SOMEHOW, found the song. GOLDEN DAYS (not the mario lanza version, no.)
just like the chords, and the, real or fake fender sound, or whatever it is, back there…
Sap. Me. Yes.
There is some music and dance that I REALLY REALLY love to play, and listen to.
it is of SUCH intense joy, that it pretty much is my favorite thing in life.
my PERSONAL TASTE in such matters is pretty much as follows:
(in no particular order of puesto (course)
1. James Brown
2. Wagner, namely The Ring, Der Ring des Nibelungen
3. plenty of West African Dance-Drumming, from Ghana, Guinea, Mali, Ivory Coast, etc.
4. The Planets by Gustav Holst
5. The Rite of Spring by Igor Stravinsky
6. Brazilian Music, particularly Brazilian Jazz
7. and yes, there’s always “Jazz”, yes yes.
8. don’t leave out CERTAIN HARMONIES (I’ll get to which ones)
and
9. STEVE REICH’s Minimalist Music and that of
10.. PHILIP GLASS as well.
African Dance, yes yes yes…. doing that is one of the awesomest things ever… total exhaustion, VERY stimulating, so much so that at the end, you are exhausted… and yet, you would (and do) continue dancing for more hours…
THIS is what I want… THIS is HIGH STIMULATION.
THIS is LIFE.
James Brown once said something along the lines of “I want to give them MORE than they came for, I want to make them (the audience) tired, ’cause THAT’S what they came for!”
Energy Usage.
…
…
…
perhaps I am a Hedonist. (perhaps I should google such terms before I use them, not “completely
certain if I have the right word in mind. (but where’s the fun in that, where’s the fun in that, inDeed…)
ADHD be a touchy subject for me, yes.
I just searched “ADHD MUSIC” without quotes.
what I seem to find (I haven’t found out for sure yet (see above)
are presumably
websites that have music that apparently
HELP
(sigh… grumble…seeth…..grrrrr)
HELP with ADHD…
I can only assume that that means that said music HELPS people with ADHD
(grrrrrrrr)
FUNCTION BETTER, or MORE NORMALLY (seething more….grrr)
in NORMAL SOCIETY, by
(fists clenched….. voice angry)
… by helping them be more normal, like everyone else…..
@($*%*#(%_#!!
!
needless to say… MY adhd music page is not about this, not in the same way at least (all presumption, I haven’t clicked on any of these sites; it’s 2:41 am and this is a touchy touchy subject, and I don’t wanna chance gettin all emotional and angry and resentful and vengeful (my life, my feelings) this late.
AS I was saying…
MY ADHD MUSIC pages (and my LIFE)
are not about helping us FUNCTION amongst figurative “mere mortals,” (that can mean anything from “Normal People” to “Non-ADHD people” to “Non-Artists”) at least, not in the same way, not by “denying” our impulses and need for “enough stimulation, by OUR measure, not be “normal people’s” but
by GETTING enough of said stimulation, whatever it is. (my life, after all.)
if I want to use ten times as much pepper on my eggs as most people do (as my best friend DOES IN FACT DO,) I fucking will.
TASTE.
if I were gay, I’d be gay. it is for no one to TELL ME I should have different TASTES or crave DIFFERENT AMOUNTS different ways different ANYTHINGS than I do.
and if I want to play African Music from Ghana for 4 or 5 hours until I can barely stand because it is a HELL of a good time (as I did last night), until I am exhausted and need to drink a lotta water and then coffee to drive all the way home, if THIS is what makes me HAPPY, then it BLOODY WELL IS!!!
JOY! and get outta my face if you think a “proper” night is spent reading or watching tv or sports or drinking or being with a loved one (not that I don’t enjoy that too.)
MY ADHD RESOURSE CENTER, (that might be a little formal for my tastes (sure as hell is)
is about THIS, not THAT.
THAT is fitting in, self-denial (I didn’t read no Neiztsche, no I didn’t)
THIS is BEING OURSELVES.
and feel free to criticize me as incredibly infantile and juvenile, that’s your prerogative indeed.
Become Awesomeness
Become Excitement
Become Interaction
Become Engagement
BECOME ENERGY USAGE, FLOW, MOVEMENT.
BECOME IT SO MUCH YOU ARE EXHAUSTED.
“THIS” is life. (at least sometimes.)
don’t worry. there is compromise involved in life.
we’ll get to that.
first we start from this place. this place right here.
p.s. this post may seem a little extreme, yes it may. everything’s fine, just strong words and strong feelings is all, folks. everything’s fine.
is being approved of by others important, or is being honest and real(and therefore approved by ONESELF) important…
I know the answer.
Dammit, people should just what THEY LIKE. EVERYONE should do this.
that way, people wouldn’t be SECOND-HANDING everything, trying to GUESS what others want, and practically ignoring what THEY THEMSELVES want/are/need.
and no, little though of compromise has yet gone into this, after ALL, compromise comes, if at all, later, not in the beginning.
first you have a position, an ideal, an authentic, a real.
MUST turn off the harry belafonte or I will NEVER get to sleep!
WORK! WORK! WORK! SINORA!!!
Thought of the Day 1 22 2015 #2.
If I really love some music, I don’t seem to care at all whether it’s normal.
for the first time in my Life
I’m SERIOUSLY digging
Jump in the Line by Harry Belafonte.
I mean, it somehow reminds me SO MUCH of some
very Dance-Happy West African Music… the kind that MAKES you move when you hear it…
WHAT IS this, I do Wonder….
(and why don’t more white people feel moved as I…)
I have been hearing this song over and over for 20 minutes, and I bet tomorrow I will here it for 4 or 5 hours.
it is true, that underneath community, connection, family, and love,
there is self, and self joy, and self love.
without enjoying to the hilt, things such as a song and dance like this one,
there isn’t much TO share with others.
joy joy joy!!!
Thought of the day, 1 22 2015
Wate time not,
with people who are unavailable or uninterested.
thought of the day… and not for the first time.
… Whether things are done for one’s own comfort/likes/tastes,
or for Other’s PERCEIVED comfort/likes/tastes, (as if that is even possible to know,) let alone their ACTUAL comfort/likes/tastes…
really is a BIG. QUESTION.
, now, isn’t it. (to me.)
and by extension, others doing things for “your” perceived comfort/likes/tastes… how can they know what your ACTUAL comforts likes and tastes are…
… psst. this isn’t actually a question at all, it is
my implication
that you should not in fact adhere to GENERIC social norms which, being generic, have possibly not all much in common with what other people ACTUALLY want.
and that you SHOULD to things according to YOUR likes and tastes and comforts.
just a thought, possibly a very big one.
I wonder what this has to do with being an artist. or being crazy. or awesome. or honest. or an individual. or all of these. not none. shoutout Raffi.
and yes, this is the way I think things should be.
I wonder also what this has to do with my feeling that being weird was not okay, as a child, as I as seem to have allowed my life to become a vengeful rebellion against the labelers, those who labeled me, while they are off living their lives (happily or otherwise…) I am here rebelling forever.
but alas, in the words of Yoda, “Decide “I” must, how to serve myself best…”
it is for no other to tell me, as it isn’t for anyone tell the main character from The Hurt Locker
that he should be happy at home with wife and kid, and not in Iraq in the adrenaline of battle, to be happy.