when it comes to music (as opposed to “the self,”)
PerFection is
NOT. OPTIONAL.
😉
(((this requires explanation. I’ll get to it.)))
Category Archives: Self-Helping
The BEST Advice-
I have four people in mind, who, if I ask their opinion, I am feeling either sure, or am “pretending I am sure for defensive purposes” that
if I look out to them (instead of myself and experience and self-forgiveness and failure and learning and growth, not to MENTION “TRYING MORE THAN ONLY ONCE!!!”)
ahem, if I look out to them, asking them for advice on how to be as successful as THEY are,
that they will pretty much give some version of:
1. you can’t be as as successful as me,
2. especially with YOUR approach
3. you should stick to “these little smaller things instead, or
4. you shouldn’t want what I have/, what I seek, or
5. if you really do want it, you should go about it in a way that makes sense to me, not to you.
that is, to THEM, instead of ME.
however…
listening to
myself
experience
forgiving myself
failure
learning
growth, and needless to say,
TRYING MORE THAN ONLY ONCE (thank you, LUCKY MOSKO for encouraing me to do that very thing)
might be a better Idea, alas.
(is no advice, (other than to follow yourSELF, long enough)
status quo/unknown art/CalArts-Strong
something tells me that when you do something that is already approved of/known by the status quo, that it can become popular right quick.
that’s probably definitely certainly
less true for something unusual and unknown…
but let’s be CalArts-Strong about it shall we?
I love rehearsing and playing Meine Music
I love rehearsing and playing music I like/love. but never in the “let’s get it over with” way; ALWAYS in the “we love this there isn’t anything we’d WANT to do!”-way!
(I really don’t understand musicians who don’t feel that way, but, lucky me.)
my mind is not splintered
just saw a blog containing the words “SPLINTERED MIND” (ADHD-related) in the title.
my thoughts:
(an exercise of The Backwards-Bizzaro-Theory)
Our Adhd mind is only “splintered” if you consider the non-adhd mind NORMAL, WHOLE.
Maybe our mind is normal, whole, and yours is one track, low-energy.
yes sir, on the way to achieving balance, I’m all about inverting/reversing norms all the way.
no need to hurry, I’ll get to balance some day, if I am meant to.
BE YOURSELF. MANY MANY TIMES.
note to self…
you KNOW what “normal people” are gonna say about your ways of doing things, so why bother asking.
they’re gonna disapprove (maybe) and tell you you should be more normal, or more like THEM and less like YOU.
poing(poing? point) being:
if you haven’t already gone all the way with BEING YOURSELF,
then don’t bother asking others for advice on how to be them instead of how to be you- just go through with being you.
you probably are lacking confidence, you probably are assuming that you should get the same results as others, you probably are comparing yourself to them.
unless you have a TON of experience, screw all that.
go back to being yourself, and stick with it, and not with a disempowered impoverished, “if I fail one time, I give up” version of yourself, but a Strong, Courageous, TO THE HILT version. MANY TIMES.
if THAT STILL fails, only THEN think about a new plan.
until then…. stick with plan A, that is,
BE YOURSELF.
-better-than-average-
HAHAHAHA!! SELF CRACK UP!!!
I just realized (it has been dwelling in me for some time)
that I seem to trust people who evince very obvious signs of
“not accepting, not settling for, normal society.”
when people (seem to at least) evince such signs….
it seems that I get all excited, as if “OOH, another one? maybe?? will you be my friend?”
(and yes, a lot of such people, even most of them that I know, attended CalArts.)
big projects only, please
and now: actual thoughts. (if impatient, skip the first 11 lines)
topic today: creative matters.
I am concerned about which aspects of my life to try to control, and which not.
I am concerned that I always want to do things in a (typically non-conformist) “creative/artistic” way, rather than “that other way” that most people, even creatives, even artists, use.
and now for specifics:
I don’t like to BOTHER unless I’m going ALL IN, or at least, “very far in, intensely.” (this is not sexual.)
(skip to here) the way I see it,
you have to do a lot of infrastructural work just to set something up, to make it work. (which is generally a pain in the butt.)
if you are going to do that,
I think it is best to then maximize the situation and do as much as possible as extreme as possible with the “situation” you have set up, and then have to tear down.
OTHERWISE, it’s like
1. going to a gas station.
2. getting out of the car
3. paying for the gas.”
4. ONLY GETTING FIFTY CENTS WORTH.”
5. yadda yadda.
and having to do it again soon.
50 cents of gas ain’t no fun.
a full tank is.
proverbially of course.
unless you are being paid a ton of money, getting all dressed up to perform for 30 seconds
instead of for 2 hours
just ain’t it.
(I never said this approach was practical.)
not making other people’s issues mine
I really need to stop feeling the need to make other people’s issues mine, I mean, childhood is over, that shit is gone, no need to keep doing it.
Not My Circus, Not My Monkeys. remember this.
and also:
My Circus…. MY MONKEYS! (referring to musical performers of the unusually awesome variety of course)
Freddie Freeloader make happy!
WOO!, WOW… go from feeling over-analyzing,
then
listen to some FREDDIE FREELOADER (both the original and the the jon hendricks INSANE vocal version (seriously, they took all the solos by Miles, Coltrane, Canonball and the rest and made up words to em, insane)
and POOF!
feel great, happy. if only I was a (censored!) jazz singer. no, no no. z
…
AND WHAT DOES IT MEAN TO BE A CENSORED JAZZ SINGER?
say, that’s a good name for a band, or a song… no, definitely a band. I call dibs.
especially a punk band…